1percent.today

11/29/2021

To those few that occasionally read this, my apologies at not being able to inspire you on your own health journey. I have used this as a personal blog with all of its ups and downs. At the moment, I feel like a failure in my weight loss journey. I'm 290lbs, 70 up from 220(started at 307+). I use food as a coping mechanism for the boredom in my life. That boredom is self imposed as I try to escape daily life, I've lived much outside of society away from friends and family, relationships, and happiness all trying to survive through life. Its tiring and full of failures, I'm done with failures. Its time to embrace life, seek help, get my weight and physical health in check while seeking help with mental health and do more than just keeping my head above water. My journey is never over, as long as I'm alive, it is also alive

10/23/2021

Have been about 90% on program, 100% is needed to stay in fat burn otherwise just a low calorie process. Fat burn allowed me to lose about 10lbs per month 1st go, avg states 1-2 pounds per week for an avg of 12 weeks, but everyone is different. And please stay on some type of maintenance diet after weight loss diet, no point of wasting all that time to get weight down...my mistake...even while diet I'm on has such a plan. and continue on.
Got home, wanted to toss something together quickly and head out to shop.
This is a prepackaged mix of veggies with tomato sauce, some frozen grilled chicken tossed in as well, cooked(heated) in pan and some feta cheese on top. Toast is keto bread, low fat margarine toasted in same pan with parmesan cheese and everything bagel seasoning and some more feta. (This is that 10% not on program, lol, live well and be in good health).

dinner is served.

10/15/2021

"Stop, challenge, choose." [Optavia]

"Mind the gap between stimulus and response" [The 7 Habits of Effective People]

Stimulated by fried food at convenience 🏪 (love chicken tenders & okra), stopped, considered my choice to lose weight, and left with nuts.

10/15/2021

10/14/2021

FMD done after 3 days, back on 5 & 1 program.
Feels good to be back here working on physical & mental health & wellness.

10/12/2021

Day 2 of FMD.
Got up before my alarm went off, no energy drinks so far today, energy up.
Hunger is absent, cravings gone.

10/12/2021

Well, 1st day of FMD ( Fast Mimicking Diet) done. Ate one fueling at 9am, another at 3pm and last at 9pm; about 330 calories for day. Now no food till 9am. Have done this in past, and the 300-400 calories spread out over day seems to be much easier than all at lunch.

10/11/2021

I feel like I keep circling this same topic, and I will continue to do so till I change myself in small steps just like 2 years ago. In the last two years, I've been able to see my life in-balance and then unbalanced(my "normal"). Too much sugar is consumed in my normal diet, and it has a negative affect on my health and life. I believe it causes inflammation in my body and in my brain affecting my outlook on daily life. My life is out of balance, all that causes more poor choices in diet and a lack to get motivated to do anything. All that negativity brings on depressed thoughts and the viciousness of more negative thoughts. It just becomes one self imposed prison of negativity all because of diet and its affects on body and brain.
I need to detox, I also need to be disciplined and dedicated to this while trying to secure myself against any more binges in junk food and excess sugars. Then take up ketosis type diet again. I'm going to try a FMD, and keep calories at about 300-400 per day of a few days, then shift back to diet. I can do this with diet program, just 3 fuelings per day(not something they prescribe doing though). FMD is from a book I've read before. This must be done, I must get back to a balanced life.

09/26/2021

I've posted here about mental health, whether its an illness or disease, or something else, its still my mind. It may be mis-firing neurons, bad health, weight, diet, hereditary/genes, but through all of it, all that occurred in each session was still me. All my choices, all my decisions, for better or worse is all part of my time-line.
I know what is coming with each session, I know the pain, the disappointment, and disapproval. I know all of it and let it occur time and time again...why?...Because I feel powerless to change it.
Fortitude is like anything else. Its what athletes at the pro or Olympic level deal with. They have a dream(s) that gives them vision; they fight through all their depressed days, injury, illness, and pain. They fight because they have a time-line, they seek to conquer their weaknesses, and strive for perfection before the next game(s) and the goal is always Gold. They showcase Fortitude.
Your vision must be clear, your goal must be absolute, and there must always be a time-line constraint.
But my vision and goals are clouded by fantasy, false dreams, media, my own short comings, and my lack of faith in myself.
Through life, we must find resolve, we do by doing better, we must w**d out our own garden, we must fight to harden our resolve. We must be clear in vision and absolute in goals. Goals lead to Vision which illustrates the tasks within the constraint of a time-line to reach goals. This process ocurrs over and over as goals are reached and new goals sought-after making our vision more clear and highlighting more significant goals giving our life direction.

09/03/2021

This is me currently.

I started my weight loss journey just to lose weight and gain energy. I left the plan when I tightened up on all spending and switched to a bare minimum of weekly expenses going into covid not knowing how it would affect my job. I did well at 1st staying close to program, but as my physical health, weight, energy started to flux, so did my mental wellness. I never paid much attention to my mental health while on program, I had no depressed feelings, my energy stayed up, I felt well.

Its when I started to backpedal and pulled away from program all together that I really got hit, started eating more foods with higher sugar, more carbs, added back more weight. Started to feel different, my energy suffered, my breathing became more difficult. I had all these issues before program, just dealt with it so long, never really acknowledged it. Some headaches and what I guess was inflammation in certain areas of body. Then came depressed feelings, some of it was more clinical from the decreases in energy, some of it from diet, and some was emotional. It started a negative loop, the more depressed I got, the more I ate, the more my health suffered, the more my energy decreased, and so on.

Looking back on it now, and studying up on a keto diet, the program is considered to be keto-lite, or a conservative form of ketosis with more carbs to assist in mental functions. A keto diet has shown some benefits in mental wellness and decreasing depression (though a clinical study has not been conducted). I can't remember any depressed times while on program, so I personally agree with the suggestion that a keto diet has beneficial qualities.

All this leads up to me considering this program to be beneficial for both my physical health and my mental health and overall wellness. I never considered mental health as part of my weight loss journey but as it is affected by diet and affects my diet as I'm trying to eat healthy or I'm stuck in a negative loop, I now must acknowledge it as part of my journey as well. I suggest to any with physical and/or mental health issues, look online, put in the effort, seek how diet affects all aspects of your life, then make considerations to better your diet to better your life.

Through this journey so far, I lost about 87lbs, gained back about 57 through what I mentioned in this post, and now have my goals set for February 2022 as to be back down to 220lbs. And a further goal of 180lbs by July of 2020. My average loss was about 10lbs per month. The average for others on program has been 1-2lbs per week, and an average of 12 weeks on program. Each person pursues 100% on program differently, and your weight loss will always be the effort your wish to put into it. So here goes my effort, and it isn't just about weight loss any more, its my overall wellness...

07/12/2021

Its funny how much your weight impacts your life till some weight is lost then regained. All the small stuff. Holding your breath to tie shoes. Increased breathing just moving about. Stairs are the worst, and just a short time ago, was zipping up them. And just recently the air temp, 70 plus is unbearable, feels so much hotter even indoors with humidity about the same. I feel so much hotter with increased weight especially when trying to sleep at night. Why did I ever consider gaining some weight back not that big of a deal in the short term, what a joke on myself. I feel it daily, on my knees, my legs, my back, my breathing, everything and in every way. I simply got accustomed to my weight overtime, its was "normal," then I lost weight, then gained about 1/2 of it back going completely off program because of excuses I convinced myself of. Now I feel it differently than before, I have a different vision of what normal can be, it will take work and effort to get back to that point. Its like that statement, being overweight is hard, being healthy is hard, choose your hard. Only time will tell what that choice is, I'm aiming for the healthy one.

07/07/2021

Fb post 6-11-21, forgot to post this, have found it easier to type out in an app, then post here, have typed out here and then lost the entire post.

We don't start out to lose weight only to gain it back. And yet I did. Lost 87 lbs in about 8 months, then went off program, slowly gained back about 30 lbs, maintained that for over 6 months. Then slowly progressed to eating anything all the time, and have gained back another 20 lbs. I diffently feel it, feel less energetic, more sluggish, and just run down. This feeling is why I wanted to lose weight to begin with. At some point the food became more important than the health. Weird though, well not really per science, but have been on antibiotics for sinus infection and have lost my desire for sugary and salty foods, still desire carbs and fat though. Have been given sort of a reset in my colon-brain connection to the desires of my palate. This can also be done over time by sticking with a diet and changing the flora in the colon which is a 'brain' in itself.
I'm on this path of health to lose weight and maybe inspire others to do the same. There is no such thing as healty and overweight as much as we want it to be true, media outlets may tell us to accept ourselves as we are, but they don't tell us to accept our health as it is and to love our increased likelihood of becoming unhealthy. I want to be lean and healthy, I just lost my way, I will get back there, lose the weight and maintain it. I hope I gain some insight through this to help others or inspire others. Find a plan that suits YOU, and seek a healthy you.

P.S. Was not able to take advantage of the antibiotic reset, just down lately, emotionally off, and it has affected how I choose food, or my willingness to stay on program. We all have other aspects of our life that affects our diet. I do regret slipping so far from where I was, so much I forgot about in the short time of losing the weight.

I forgot about holding my breath to tie my shoes, how much of my life I sat idly by because of no energy, how much out of breath just going up some stairs or mild walking. I forgot about all this, it was just normal in so much of my life, but then losing that weight, I discovered a new normal. I want that normal back, with all its norms, the increase in energy, and better health.