11/21/2025
This week, I made a short-sighted move that turned out to be exactly the initiatory fire I didn’t know I needed.
I stacked:
1. Methylene Blue- a mitochondrial enhancer and MAO-A inhibitor that I take for mitochondrial energy with creatine in the morning. with
2. 5-HTP- a serotonin precursor that I take at night to help with sleep.
On paper, it didn’t seem like a big deal. And at first, it felt amazing. Euphoric. Light. Blissed out. Almost like spiritual ecstasy…
But underneath that high was a subtle trembling in my body- a signal I brushed off. In truth, it wasn’t expansion. It was a serotonin dump.
Then came the storm. Serotonin syndrome.⚡
Mood shifts. Strange impulses to react, though I didn’t. A deep inability to focus. A foggy, disoriented, almost dissolving feeling- like a low-grade ego death. My energy felt a little leaky. Scattered. Fragmented. I thought it was all 11/11 stuff!
It reminded me of the death I walked through over a year ago, except this time… I stayed with it.
I didn’t collapse.
I didn’t dissociate.
I stayed present in the haze. I tracked it. I listened.
And eventually, I caught it! The very real interaction between Methylene Blue and 5-HTP. I paused both. Rerouted my stack. Rechecked every single compound I was using. I started fresh.
It’s only been one day, and I already feel steadier. More clear. More myself.
Not because I “fixed” anything, but because I remembered who I am in the middle of the biochemical chaos. It was a gift! If I can be present and think critically enough in that storm to transcend it, then my embodiment is SOLID! Initiation passed!🦋
This whole experience reminded me that sovereignty isn’t just about spiritual insight. It’s about precision. Discernment. Knowing your self, not self, what your body needs and when to pause. It’s about having the humility to learn from the storm and the strength to walk through it without handing your power away.
This was my sacred systems check.
Who else has had some powerful transitions this week? I want to hear your stories!
✌💜🐦🔥♾