01/07/2026
Today, as a mom, I feel torn and overwhelmed with guilt. I chose to go to work instead of going with my mother-in-law and my baby to the hospital to have her NG tube replaced after she threw it up last night. Choices like this weigh so heavily on my heart.
I carry the insurance and benefits for our family, so quitting my job simply isn’t an option. I have to keep showing up, keep performing, keep succeeding—because that’s who I am. I’m blessed with a workplace that truly takes care of me, and the last thing I ever want is to let them down. So I push myself to the limit, trying to juggle this impossible idea of “work-life balance.”
But let me be honest about how hard this really is.
I have four children. One is battling cancer, while the other three are playing sports, growing up, and just trying to be normal kids. I need to be with Rachael. I need to be at work. I need to be home with my other babies, my husband, and my household. I’m being pulled in every direction, all at once.
The weight of this life feels unbearable some days. I can’t keep up. There are always bills to pay, insurance companies to fight with, endless doctor appointments, laundry and cleaning that never stop. Grocery shopping, cooking, feeding everyone, haircuts, dentist visits, games to plan for and attend, illnesses to manage, and medications that must be remembered morning and night.
It’s constant. It’s exhausting. And some days, it feels like too much to carry—yet somehow, I keep going.
I luckily have a support system in my family and many outside friends and community that support me and for that I am grateful.
Please continue to pray for our strength and energy to keep up. If only I was as strong as my RayRay!!!
