10/11/2025
I am a Special Needs Mum - and sometimes, Iâm not okay.
Today is World Mental Health Day and,
maybe youâll understand this. Maybe you wonât.
Maybe youâve felt it too, or maybe your story looks different.
But if your thoughts have ever resembled mine, I want you to know something -
youâre not alone here. Iâm in this too.
I have a child this world doesnât always understand.
A child who canât always tolerate the world around him - crowds, shops, noise, newness, even the simplest tasks on some days.
A child whoâs tightly strung and highly anxious.
Who loses it loudly and suddenly.
Who needs help with everything - self-care, mobility, communication, and the scariest one of all: safety.
I have a child who runs.
Who acts on impulse, without fear or awareness.
Who lives on adrenaline most of the time.
And yes - a child who can be aggressive. Who can hurt himself and others.
Sometimes for hours, sometimes for days, sometimes for weeks.
And the world? The world thinks thatâs on me.
That his behaviour is a reflection of my poor parenting, my lack of discipline, my failure.
Thatâs what they say.
But the heaviest part isnât the judgment. Itâs the thoughts.
The constant what ifs.
The who will take care of him when Iâm gone? loop that never stops.
Thatâs the weight that breaks me some days.
I get hurt. I get worn out. I worry too much.
I run on empty for too long.
I rarely sleep.
And my dreams, my goals, my self-care - theyâre often the first to go.
Some days, Iâm not okay.
Some days, I donât want to keep going.
Some days, I feel broken, lost, and completely crushed.
Some days, the heaviness swallows me whole.
This life doesnât have an off switch.
Itâs every minute, every day, for the longest haul.
But I want you to know, Mama - I see you.
I feel it too. Itâs hard. Itâs relentless.
And - you matter.
Your mental health matters.
Itâs not selfish to care for yourself - itâs essential.
Because when youâre not okay, nothing else stands steady.
So please, be good to you. Not just for one day - every day you can.
Find the smallest space to rest, to breathe, to recover, to do something thatâs just for you.
Itâs okay to not be okay - but itâs not okay to stay there.
Take care of you, because youâre the heartbeat of it all.
Love,
Christine | Special Soul Mama
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