24/02/2022
I'm not exactly sure how old I was when I first saw Snow White, but there was something so gentle & sweet about her - her voice, her love of animals & the forest, & her ability to overcome absolute terror - that reached deep into my soul.
Love seemed to pour from her lips & her heart. I had never experienced anyone so gentle & kind despite their circumstances, especially in real life. 💖
Snow White also confirmed something I already knew deep down - that the people around you aren't always what they seem.
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Growing up, I lived in a very unsafe family environment. I used to hide under the dining room table with all the chairs facing in, & wait for the physical & emotional abuse in my home to stop - praying that I would fall asleep in the meantime.
I wanted desperately to be saved and/or taken in by someone - anywhere but home.
As a very sensitive Pisces (rising) child, I was known to daydream, pick flowers, sing & speak to the elementals, regularly leaving my body & jumping into the spirit realm.
I learned to not bring any attention to myself - unless useful. This is where a lot of my psychic awareness & intuitive abilities come from - helping to protect me from my environment ✨✨
In my physical body, I lived in a constant state of absolute terror. When it came to my Autonomic Nervous System, I swung from Flight/Fight Sympathetic II (Reacting to Danger) to Lethargic Parasympathetic I (Apathy & Depression).
This is why I understand trauma at such a deep, core level. I've spent my entire life unraveling & unbinding my energetic imprint - specifically generational trauma from my physical, emotional & spiritual bodies...
..& my greatest lesson has always been to learn kindness in this life. Kindness to others. Kindness to myself.
I've spent my adult life undoing what I was taught to do - physically & verbally. Even sexually.
I've also had to learn about unconditional love, & how it is so vastly different from what was first modeled to me.
And I discovered healthy boundaries, which provides my own sense of safety.
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So, I want to be remembered for my love, compassion & kindness.
Dear beautiful soul, what do you want to be remembered for?