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Priestess 𓋹 Ritual Artist 𓋹 Tender Hearted Heretic

A week in the books that only memez can explain 😂💯
12/20/2022

A week in the books that only memez can explain 😂💯

Over this last week I’ve discovered a wall around my heart that I didn’t know existed. It feels like it’s protecting som...
12/19/2022

Over this last week I’ve discovered a wall around my heart that I didn’t know existed. It feels like it’s protecting something tender, raw and fragile, like a baby bird that hasn’t yet grown feathers.

It’s not a wall I can just tear down and bulldoze, there’s a very good reason it still feels rough and jagged within me.

Yet I can now see through the wall to the other side, and make out the parts that need care, compassion, trust, appreciation, understanding, slowness.

This wall is old, created when I was preverbal. I can only be with it now because of the incredible number of corrective experiences I’ve had over the last few months and it feels like I’m hitting that thunderbolt moment of transformation the “quantum leap” everyone talks about.

As I’ve been writing this, I’m feeling the overwhelming sensation of grief mingled with hope that sends gushing hot tears down my cheeks.

One of my core values is appreciation of beauty - one that I find really easy to embody when I’m supporting others in their process and yet one I find really challenging when I’m sitting with my own. It’s such a mind f/ck to feel appreciation for the pain and its messages no matter how long you’ve been practicing listening to them.

The palpitations of my heart expanding and contracting has been so disorienting it feels like I’ve been thrown off the well worn path and into the bushes to discover a new route out of this very old wound.

I’ve felt this before and instead of questioning it, I’m leaning in with more joy and presence than before.

It feels a bit strange this doesn’t have to be so dramatic anymore. I feel at peace seeing what’s on the other side of the wall and not needing to change it right away.

Feeling my heart break has never felt so good, and truly reveling in every minute of it.

Something I’ve learned about spiritual bypassing is that we all do it.It often comes up unexpectedly, and especially hur...
12/13/2022

Something I’ve learned about spiritual bypassing is that we all do it.

It often comes up unexpectedly, and especially hurts when they are someone you thought could hold you in your pain or see that the reason you’re sharing it is to create connection.

Spiritual bypassing is a coping mechanism when someone isn’t able to hold the emotional weight of what you’re sharing with them.

The SENSATION they feel from what you are sharing can be so overwhelming that it can cause immediate nervous system activation, ego protectors on high alert and make the person you thought you could share your deepest darkest with turn it all against you.

That doesn’t make it right and ok. It means that you’re dealing with a less rational and more primal part that feels the need to protect itself.

My advice?

Deep breaths. Don’t try and fight them on it. You’ll otherwise spin your wheels and beat a dead horse trying to get them to understand you and where gaslighting and bypassing can become more harmful to you.

Instead, what if you take care of yourself:

1. Stop trying to get them to understand. When their defenses are up, there is a 0% chance anything you’ll say will get through.
2. Affirm yourself. Your reality is equally as valuable as theirs and just because they can’t hear you, does not mean that what you feel isn’t important.
3. Let yourself feel loss for the relationship. You might have had an unrealistic expectation of this person and with any illusion bubble that’s burst, comes grief.
4. Repeat steps 1-3 as often as needed.
5. Once you’ve felt all the feely feels, if you desire to stay in connection with this person, what are the boundaries you need emotionally/physically/spiritually/mentally to be in connection without resentment?

🪷What else have you found helpful to take care of yourself in this situation?

I’m never going to be too spiritual, high vibe or “light” to not play in the dark.I’ll never be “too spiritual” to go ou...
12/09/2022

I’m never going to be too spiritual, high vibe or “light” to not play in the dark.

I’ll never be “too spiritual” to go out dancing into the wee morning at some grimy underground after-hours.

I’ll never be too high vibe to listen to death metal

I’ll never be too light to embody the fullness of the dark god(dess) energy that wants to move through me.

In fact, BECAUSE I finally let myself off the binary-hook, the more I love bringing my darkness out to play.

I get to be in service to others through my embodied permission instead of hiding in the shadows thirsting for their blood.

Unleashing demons without discernment will always give the dark god(dess) aspect a bad rap, but I feel like it’s just a matter of tuning the frequency and understanding that aspect’s hunger.

Of clearing the pipes so to say…

🔥Where do you devour others and revel in the destruction? 🔥

For me it’s all stemmed from a shame story. Everyone was going to be more right, more in, more acceptable. At the core, it felt like it was wrong for me to even exist. So in every waking moment, I was both looking for evidence to prove this story wrong while at the same time feeding it.

🔥I chose relationships that were absolutely doomed to fail from the start.

🔥Picked jobs that filled my pockets but stripped my soul.

🔥Felt unseen, unheard and unfelt by those who told me they loved me and derided me all in the same breath.

So sometimes, I made sure they would f/cking feel me.

I’d engulf them and in the aftermath would hate myself for it.

I was frightened by my silhouette and how this hunger made me lose control. Especially perturbed by how much I secretly loved feeling the raw power that would take over.

It never was nourishing for long. It wasn’t until I started to thaw inside that I stopped using friction, drama and chaos to making me feel alive.

I got back into my body. Purged physically/mentally/emotionally/spiritually the black tar that covered my heart.

Changed the story.

The armor that covered my heart outgrew its purpose and I had to learn how to take it off. It hasn’t been without its major fall outs and little deaths, bit by bit opening.

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In this exact order…of course 😆🌯 🍑 🤚
12/08/2022

In this exact order…of course 😆🌯 🍑 🤚

Don’t’t forget, most times they aren’t telling you their feelings because they want to abandon you. They are telling you...
12/06/2022

Don’t’t forget, most times they aren’t telling you their feelings because they want to abandon you.

They are telling you their feelings because they want to be more connected.

They want to be fully seen, felt and understood got their experience so that they can move forward.

One if the truths about relational dynamics I’ve come to is that the bigger picture, silver lining or other side of the story means jack s**t when someone is deep in their emotions.

I’ve found that “tell me more” is the magic statement that can turn walls into portals and a fight into a collaboration.

It can be scary to ask, to see more of this persons truth.

Obviously, there are times where those three little words aren’t enough to save the discussion/relationship.

They do however, break you out of any relationship illusions and snap you back to reality, no matter the outcome.

As the year has been winding down, I’ve been reflecting on my own journey and how my work is starting to take true form....
11/21/2022

As the year has been winding down, I’ve been reflecting on my own journey and how my work is starting to take true form. I’ve been sitting with my values, with what I desire to bring to the world and how I truly want to BE. So here it is.

✨I am for full self-expression and the uninhibited flow of life-force energy through every body.

✨I wish for each soul to feel at home in their body, to feel every cell of their being vibrating in technicolor. I wish for each person to know their depths, their heights and ultimately, their true power.

✨I desire to bring magic back into the world through my work. To weave ancient and modern into the brilliant tapestry of the soul’s journey.

✨I want to support others in courageously going into the Shadow and bringing forth their gifts. To normalize the eb and flow, contraction and expansion and to PLAY with reality.

✨I aspire to continue to cultivating an inner sense of wonder that keeps the body/mind/spirit/soul so flexible, chaos is but a natural part to the cycle.

✨Ultimately, I dream of a world that lives in greater symbiotic relationship with all beings - plant, animal, bug, or human. A world that prioritizes the heart over ego and body over mind.

🙏🏽 If you’re on my vibe and are ready to explore your inner self like never before, I’m offering 1:1 sessions both online AND now in-person in San Jose! These are sessions to help you to UNLEASH what’s holding your back from your full-expression and living your most magical, tapped in life.

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About last night… 💗✨It was a full house for Altar Ego, my heart is SO full from the potent exploration we took as a grou...
11/15/2022

About last night… 💗✨

It was a full house for Altar Ego, my heart is SO full from the potent exploration we took as a group. 🥹

I’m honestly still sitting with the beauty of everyone’s authenticity, vulnerability and curiosity to dive in to their Shadow and open to their potential. It was such a special and sacred experience to hold this space.

I can tell something unlocked within me and I’m forever changed 🙏🏽

Grateful for the support from my dear loved ones, ancestors, guides and the energies of both the seen and unseen. Incredibly grateful for for all her coaching, support and space holding as I’ve been defining and refining my offering.

Big thank you to for having me last night, it was such an incredible full circle moment 💗

It was pure magic 🔥More on this soon ✨

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