02/02/2023
“Wasn’t sure I was going to share , but there needs to be more awareness for PPD/PPA, considering 1 in 7 women will experience it. My hope in sharing is if another mama is going through it, you’re not alone.” ❤️ — .m.torba
“2 hours before this happy picture, I broke down crying after breaking down the day before. Feelings of so much love for this little child, but so much disconnect from myself, of feeling alone, anxiety about not being my best for either of my children or for my husband, feelings of failure and like I’m not doing enough, and exhaustion from another night of bad sleep during a developmental leap mixed with the start of teething, and feelings of resentment and guilt. It all came bubbling out unexpectedly, the utter defeat and anxiety weighing me down.”
“Going from 1 to 2 has been so much harder for me personally, than 0 to 1. Trying to be there for 2 little humans instead of just 1, trying to make sure work gets done, and Jake has time to decompress after the office, and keep our home running smoothly, but forgetting that I also need time to decompress and just be. The mental load building from trying to do everything.”
“This 4th trimester has kicked my ass more than I ever expected it to, but it’s also reminded me it’s okay to ask for help. I am very fortunate to have a supportive husband and a group of women, all due around the same time, that I can talk to about my feelings and make me feel a little less alone when they share they’ve also felt this way (love you so much ladies!). So does having access to mental health care that helps manage the feelings that aren’t normal and trigger anxiety, understanding where these feelings are coming from and that mental health isn’t a scary 4 letter word. Every day isn’t always like this, but it’s hard to tell when the feelings will bubble over and feel too much. Having the support makes it more manageable and like I’m not drowning, like I can do this and it will get better.”
“Check in on your mom friends ❤️ knowing you’re still there even as their lives have become so busy with kids really makes a huge difference!”
You are not alone. You are not to blame. With help, you will be well. 💙