01/15/2022
"If she's hungry, give her food. If she wants to drink bring her a drink" - I told her 94 year old husband Bruce last week. "Just don't force her, if she doesn't want to eat, don't force her. If she doesn't want to drink, don't force her, let her decide".
Mrs. B's dementia has been progressing more quickly. She's been more agitated, yelling obscenities, paranoid that someone is trying to kill her. "She accuses me of having affairs with any woman I talk to, even our own granddaughter!" said Bruce. "For the last 2 weeks or so she's been more incontinent, and having more accidents. I don't think she knows what the toilet is many times, last night she went right next to the toilet, and just flat out refused to use it".
"Sometimes she looks at the food, and doesn't know what to do with it. Many times she doesn't know what the utensils are for, or how to use them. Yesterday it took 3 hours for her to eat only a small amount, she's lost 4 pounds in the last week".
"What should we do? - he asked.
"Tell me Bruce, if it was you that was in her condition. What would you like us to do? Would you like us to try to keep you alive no matter what? Would you want to be sent out to the hospital or ER?, or would you prefer we made you comfortable and helped you stay at home? Did you guys ever talk about this? What were her wishes?"
"I know she would not have wanted to live like this, that I know for sure, I just cannot bring myself to even think about it. We have been together for 65 years!"
"But you are right!" - he said. "I need to honor her wishes...".