Dr. Kimberly S Benson LMHC CAP CCTP

01/02/2026

A New Year Reflection: Healing, Resilience, and the Courage to Trust Again

The New Year is often framed as a fresh start—but for many of us, it doesn’t feel clean or light or celebratory. It feels quiet. Sobering. Reflective.

Healing doesn’t usually arrive with fireworks.

It arrives with discernment.

For those who have lived through rupture—betrayal, loss, disillusionment, or the slow erosion of trust—the New Year isn’t about pretending everything is okay. It’s about deciding how you will relate to reality from here on out.

That’s where resilience actually lives.

Resilience isn’t toughness.

It isn’t endurance.

It isn’t “getting over it.”

Resilience is the capacity to stay in relationship with yourself after something breaks.

And one of the most overlooked forms of healing is the rebuilding of epistemic trust—the ability to trust your own perceptions, your own knowing, and eventually, the information you receive from others again.

When epistemic trust is damaged, people don’t just feel hurt—they feel disoriented. They doubt their instincts. They second-guess their memories. They wonder whether their reactions are “too much” or “not enough.” This kind of injury doesn’t heal through reassurance alone. It heals through consistency, accountability, and lived experience.

In other words: truth over time.

Healing in the New Year may look like:

No longer gaslighting yourself for what you felt
Allowing anger to exist without letting it run the show
Letting systems, consequences, and reality do their work without you carrying them
Choosing clarity over closeness
Choosing integrity over intensity
Optimistic trust does not mean blind trust.

It means believing that truth eventually reveals itself.

It means trusting that you can survive what you see.

It means knowing that even when people fail, you can still orient toward what is real.

For some, the bravest New Year resolution is this:

I will not abandon myself again.

I will listen when something feels off.

I will slow down instead of explaining it away.

I will allow grief without turning it into self-blame.

I will let accountability exist without needing revenge.

This is how trust is rebuilt—not by forcing hope, but by honoring reality.

The New Year doesn’t need a new you.

It needs a truer you.

One who can hold complexity.

One who can tolerate disappointment without collapsing.

One who can say, “I see clearly now—and I can still move forward.”

That is healing.

That is resilience.

That is the quiet strength of epistemic trust returning.

And it’s more than enough to begin again.

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01/01/2026

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12/29/2025

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12/08/2025

Learning to Trust Myself Again: The Real Meaning of Self-Reliance in Long-Term Recovery

On Saturday, I picked up my 18-year chip. Eighteen years. Nearly two decades of recovery, rebuilding, and re-learning what it means to live in my own skin. The topic at the meeting was Steps 3, 7, and 11—surrender, humility, conscious contact with God as we understand God. And woven through the room was a familiar refrain I’ve heard for years in the 12-step world:

“Self-reliance is dangerous. Trusting yourself isn’t safe. You must rely on others.”

I understand where this comes from. In early recovery, I needed that message. My internal compass was shattered. I didn’t know what was healthy and what was destructive. I was tangled in codependent patterns, survival strategies, and the fallout of toxic relationships. Relying on others—healthy others—was a lifeline.

But here’s what I’ve come to understand over the last five months, especially through the work I’ve been doing with my two current therapists:

Self-reliance isn’t the enemy.

Broken self-reliance is.

When we say, “Don’t trust yourself,” what we’re really addressing is the early recovery self—the dysregulated parts, the wounded protectors, the impulses that come from trauma rather than truth. That version of us is not a reliable navigator. But we don’t stay that version forever.

Long-term recovery demands a new conversation.

If I’m still outsourcing every decision, every bit of hope, faith, grounding, and soothing to people outside of me…

If I still believe I’m fundamentally unsafe in my own hands…

If I still look outward for every answer…

Then I haven’t actually grown. I’ve just substituted one dependency for another.

True psychological maturation—and true spiritual development—requires that we slowly, gently, intentionally cultivate the capacity to trust the Self that is emerging inside us.

IFS calls this the Core Self.

It is the part of us that carries:

Calm
Clarity
Curiosity
Compassion
Confidence
Courage
Creativity
Connectedness
These aren’t skills we borrow from the outside world.

These are capacities that already live inside us, waiting to be uncovered.

And the more connected we become to this internal source of wisdom, the healthier our relationships become externally. Paradoxically, learning to rely on ourselves is what makes us safe to rely on others.

Psychodynamically, this is individuation.

It’s the slow process of moving out of emotional fusion, dependency, or authority-based living, and into a sturdy internal world where we can think, feel, choose, and act from a grounded place.

Eighteen years in, what I know is this:

Self-reliance without support is dangerous.
Support without self-reliance is disabling.
The goal is integration.
The goal is maturity.
The goal is conscious contact with a Higher Power that strengthens, not replaces, our inner world.
My therapists now encourage self-reliance—not as rebellion, but as growth.

I no longer need to ask the world, “Am I okay?”

I’m learning to ask myself.

And when I deepen my contact with God as I understand God, the message is never, “Outsource your life.”

It’s always:

“Partner with Me—and with yourself.”

So today’s reflection is this:

Recovery doesn’t end at abstinence.

Healing doesn’t end at surrender.

Spirituality doesn’t end at reliance on God.

The real transformation begins when you learn to trust the Self you’ve spent years rebuilding.

May we rely on others when needed, rely on God for guidance,

and finally—beautifully—learn to rely on the person we are becoming.

by: Dr. Kimberly S. Benson LMHC

11/20/2025

When Karma Becomes the Parent Who Breaks the Double Bind

There’s a Zen koan often described as a double bind:

“If you speak, you lose.

If you stay silent, you lose.”

It’s a paradox many of us understand deeply—especially those who grew up in chaos or emotional instability. You learn early that sometimes every choice leads to pain:

Speak up? You’re punished.

Stay quiet? You’re blamed.

Hold on? You lose yourself.

Let go? You lose the relationship.

That’s the psychological trap known as a double bind—and some adult relationships, even ones that feel safe or meaningful for years, can quietly recreate it.

You find yourself trying to solve an impossible puzzle, twisting yourself into shapes you were never meant to hold.

And here’s where karma enters—not as vengeance, but as the parent you never had.

1. Karma Doesn’t Punish—It Untangles

When you’re trapped in a double bind, you try everything you can to find the “right” choice. You overthink, over-function, over-apologize. You try to preserve the bond, protect the other person, and stabilize the dynamic.

But there is no right choice in a double bind.

Only confusion.

Only guilt.

Only self-erasure.

Karma steps in when you’re too exhausted to keep solving something that was never solvable.

It says:

“This was never your weight.

This wasn’t your burden.

I’ll take it from here.”

Karma dissolves the bind by breaking the illusion that you were the problem.

2. Karma Reveals What You Couldn’t Say Without Being Blamed

A Zen koan is designed to break the mind open.

A life koan—created by someone’s behavior—does the same.

When karma intervenes, everything becomes clearer than it ever was while you were trying to hold it together.

The harm wasn’t in your voice.

The harm wasn’t in your silence.

The harm wasn’t in your reactions or your emotions.

The harm was in the system—the unstable dynamic, the power imbalance, the pattern the other person refused to see.

Karma brings that truth forward without you needing to justify anything.

Not violently.

Not dramatically.

Just inevitably.

3. Karma Protects the Child Who Had No Protection

Growing up in emotional chaos teaches you to do the impossible:

Protect the person hurting you.

Decode their moods.

Shrink yourself to keep the peace.

Carry what was never yours.

So when a similar dynamic shows up in adulthood—especially with someone you trusted deeply—you fall back into old survival roles.

You try to fix it.

Understand it.

Carry it.

Make sense of it.

But karma steps in like a steady, grounded parent and says:

“You’ve carried enough.

This time, life will correct what you couldn’t.”

Karma doesn’t punish people on your behalf.

Karma releases you from carrying the consequences of their choices.

4. When Karma Arrives, the Testing Stops

People only test your boundaries when they believe nothing will ever push back.

But when their own patterns finally catch up—

when cracks in the story can’t be plastered over—

when their behavior confronts them more loudly than you ever could—

They go quiet.

The testing stops.

The provoking stops.

The little emotional jabs stop.

The minimization stops.

Because now they aren’t wrestling with you.

They’re wrestling with themselves.

Karma redirects their attention to the only person responsible for their choices.

5. My Experience, Softly Said

I’ve lived inside a double bind with someone I trusted deeply.

I tried every possible way to make it work.

I gave truth, compassion, patience, loyalty, and care.

And when the relationship collapsed—suddenly, painfully, and without the dignity the history deserved—I thought it was a personal failure.

It wasn’t.

It was the moment the double bind cracked open.

The moment karma stepped in and said:

“You don’t need to keep losing yourself here.

Your clarity will protect you now.

Walk forward.”

And slowly, quietly, I did.

6. A Final Reflection

A good friend told me today:

“God pruned her out of your life to make room for Him.”

At first, I just sat with that.

Then I realized how perfectly it fits the truth of karma.

Pruning isn’t punishment.

Pruning is protection.

Pruning is preparation.

Sometimes the universe removes the very person you were clinging to—not because they were entirely bad, and not because the history was meaningless, but because their presence was taking up space where your own healing needed to grow.

Pruning cuts away what chokes the roots.

Karma untangles what suffocates the spirit.

Both clear the ground so something truer, healthier, and more aligned can take root.

And when someone is “pruned” out of your life:

the double bind breaks,
the confusion stops,
the testing ends,
and the silence around you becomes space instead of abandonment.
Space for clarity.

Space for growth.

Space for God, if you believe in that.

Space for the version of you who no longer twists herself to earn safety or love.

Karma breaks the bind.

God prunes the branch.

And you finally get to grow straight.

By Dr. Kimberly Benson LMHC

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11/20/2025

When People Feel Threatened by Your Growth, They Try to Rewrite the Story

One of the clearest markers of your evolution is this:

Someone who once felt larger in your life suddenly feels the need to explain why your growth “doesn’t count.”

It’s predictable.

It’s clinical.

And it’s not actually about you.

In psychotherapy, we see it all the time — not just in clients, but in colleagues, supervisors, family systems, and relationships of all kinds. The moment a person becomes clearer, more organized, more grounded, or more effective… someone in their orbit becomes uncomfortable.

And discomfort always seeks a target.

The Psychology Behind the Diminishment of Growth

When a person evolves in ways that clarify their internal world — their voice, boundaries, insight, or direction — it forces others to confront their own unresolved stagnation.

Instead of engaging with their discomfort, they use the easiest defense mechanisms available:

minimization, projection, passive-aggressive “feedback,” or condescending critiques of the very growth they used to praise.

It often sounds like:

“It’s not really you.”
“Your work used to be more authentic.”
“Something feels off — too organized, too complex, too polished.”
“You’ve changed.”
“I liked you better before.”
What they’re really saying is:

“Your evolution disrupts the narrative where I felt wiser, bigger, or more central.”

This has nothing to do with the quality of your growth.

It has everything to do with the threat it poses to their position.

When You Become Clear, You Stop Playing the Old Role

Sometimes people depended on you remaining:

confused
self-doubting
emotionally dependent
less confident
less articulated
less aware
Your clarity removes the power imbalance they quietly relied on.

Your insight shifts the dynamic.

Your voice threatens the version of you that made them feel important.

Professionally, I’ve seen it happen in therapy, in supervision, and among clinicians who lose their footing when a client or colleague outgrows the role they once held. Personally, I’ve lived it — the moment your internal structure strengthens, you become incompatible with relationships built on imbalance.

And the person who once held authority or control reacts not with reflection, but with defensiveness masquerading as critique.

Growth Exposes Character

A person who is secure in themselves doesn’t panic when you rise.

They don’t scramble to rewrite your progress.

They don’t diminish your evolution.

They don’t make condescending comments to reassert their relevance.

They don’t suddenly critique what they once praised.

Only people who relied on your old limitations care this much about disproving your new strengths.

And there is something profoundly liberating in recognizing this:

If your growth destabilizes someone, it reveals the fragility of the relationship — not the illegitimacy of your evolution.

When Someone Attacks Your Voice, They’re Showing You Theirs

In clinical work, projection is one of the most reliable tells:

People attack what they cannot tolerate in themselves.

They diminish your complexity because theirs scares them.
They mock your organization because they feel internally chaotic.
They critique your clarity because it exposes their avoidance.
They accuse you of being “too much” because they’ve lived their whole life being “not enough.”
And when they comment on your growth with hostility or condescension, what they’re actually revealing is their fear of becoming irrelevant.

Your Evolution Will Cost You Some People — But It Will Never Cost You Yourself

A person who can’t celebrate your growth is someone who was attached to your stagnation.

And the moment you realize that, every attempt to diminish you becomes nothing more than data.

Data that confirms your progress.

Data that clarifies the relationship.

Data that frees you from trying to earn validation from someone who was only comfortable with your smaller self.

Because real growth is not just about becoming better.

It’s about becoming incompatible with anything — or anyone — that required you to stay small.

Professional Reflection

From a psychodynamic standpoint, these reactions are not random. They follow a predictable pattern of threatened attachment, disrupted power dynamics, and defensive reorganization. When a person has relied on your old role to maintain their own sense of stability, your growth destabilizes the internal arrangement they depended on. Their criticism is not insight — it is defense.

Growth forces a recalibration of the relational field, and not everyone is willing or able to rise to meet the new level of psychological truth. Some expand with you. Some collapse. Some attack. And some reveal, through their response, exactly why your evolution was necessary.

A person’s reaction to your growth is one of the most clinically accurate measures of their emotional maturity.

And recognizing that isn’t arrogance.

11/18/2025

🔥 Moody Master Daily Reflection

“I died a hundred times to become this version of me. So yeah—I protect her. Becoming her wasn’t free.”

— Say It Savage

There is a version of you people will never understand because they never lived the life that forged her.

They didn’t witness the nights you shook alone.
They didn’t see the betrayals you swallowed just to keep functioning.
They didn’t watch you lose everything you thought was safe—
including the people who were supposed to protect you.

They didn’t see how many times you had to rebuild after someone else’s collapse fell on top of your spirit.

You became this version of you by burying old selves—
the compliant one, the self-blaming one, the one who kept shrinking to stay loved.
And every time she died, a new layer of truth rose from the ashes.

That’s why you’re protective now.
That’s why you’re discerning.
That’s why the door doesn’t swing wide open anymore.

Because becoming this version of yourself wasn’t free—
it cost innocence, illusions, old fantasies, and entire identities.
It cost the version of you who tolerated disrespect, blurred boundaries, and emotional crumbs disguised as connection.
It cost the part of you who kept hoping broken people would ever choose to stop breaking you.

And healing isn’t just about softness.
It’s also about steel.
It’s about saying:

“I have survived too many deaths to ever go back to who I was.”

Today’s reminder:
Protect the woman you’ve fought your way into being.
Not out of fear—
but out of sacred respect for the journey that nearly destroyed you.

💭 Thought for the Day

I refuse to abandon the self I crawled through hell to become.

🖋 Reflection Prompt

Which former version of yourself had to “die” for you to become who you are now—and what does the current you refuse to tolerate anymore?

🎵 Reflection Song

“You Don’t Own Me” – Grace (feat. G-Eazy)

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