03/03/2018
Oh lordy, I’m a little afraid to write this post but I know it is important and I preach radical self-acceptance so here I go ⚡️I have kept myself from so many experiences because I didn’t feel worthy and thought I had to do _______ before I would be good enough. One of the biggest struggles with self-doubt I still have is the thought ☹️Who do I think I am to try and help others? I’m a freakin mess! 🙁 Which isn’t true. I am not a mess and either are you. We are all deserving of feeling legitimate for who we are, right now. Not when we finally “get it together”, right now! When we stop delaying our own fulfillment based on some future perfect version of ourselves, we allow for wholeness and allow others to love us for who we really are. Choosing to be vulnerable and imperfect is an act of self-love. Being a perfectionist is really just fear. Fear of being seen, fear of failing and fear of being judged (by ourselves and others). I used to think if I had the right clothes, the right office, the right certifications hanging on the wall, the right amount of healing and spiritual evolution THEN I could embody my purpose and help others. Those are just tactics my ego glossed brain uses to keep me in my comfort zone and in the illusion of control. Knowing that makes it easier to navigate through my fears and open up to my true yearnings. My message may not be for everyone and I acknowledge my perspective is a privilege in which I am deeply grateful. I have worked hard to know my worth, my heart, my soul and I am honored to help others open up to theirs. So when I hear the fearful inner voice ask “Who do I think I am to try and help others?” I answer, I am a survivor of childhood trauma who is brave in choosing to love despite being wounded. I am brave for rising above my internal critic because I know I am not alone and when I share my vulnerability, it helps me grow AND others too 💫
I am brave for wanting to know myself deeply and live authentically. I am brave for sharing my truth, especially when I don’t want to. That’s who I think I am damn it. I’m fu***ng brave. **tbabe