The Terminal Hippie

03/14/2026

I am back home, but in so much more pain than in the hospital. 😩😔

03/12/2026

Hey hey...you trying to sleep 👀😭
Let me mess that up for you real quick!

03/12/2026

Hi all! As my latest video goes, I’m currently hospitalized and my wonderful friend Andrea offered to start this meal train. Even before this I’ve been barely getting by with the current tumors and how bad it hurts to move. If you’re not local there are options for gift cards. We do use door dash when I can’t get up. Thank you, if you feel moved to contribute. Prayers are also so appreciated

Alisha has been hospitalized and could really use our support once she's home. Please sign up to provide meals - either home-cooked meals or Door Dash/Uber Eats certificates are greatly appreciated! When dropping off meals, please DO NOT KNOCK - please leave them on the porch. Thanks for your unders...

03/12/2026

Welp, didn’t last long seeing improvement before complications hit. Scary times. Two separate infections apparently are going on in my body right now. I waited to go in like a dumbie, but they think they caught it early enough to where a couple days of their antibiotics will make it better. I could barely walk, very dehydrated, and passed out in the ER Lobby. Luckily God sent me angels in Pam and her husband Tim and they were right there to help me and comfort me. This stuff is scary. And I’m sick of living it. Everytime I need to go to the hospital I wonder, is this it? It’s a fear of leaving my kids behind I can’t escape. And if it will hurt. Because I go down fighting. I may complain, but I don’t give up 😅

03/06/2026

So with the meal train not really working out, I guess people really get used to me having cancer even though it’s a regular need seeing I am terminal and stage four. It’s nothing I like to have to ask for help. But anyways the point - I thought I would share this to save other people some money on groceries! With the 50% off it’s really crazy how cheap it is, and you can cancel when the discount is done! I had to spend way too much money on eating out when I really couldn’t even stand and I about fell over when I saw the total for three quality dinners was only like $36 so we did a week of it and it only ended up being like $69 for the whole week plus a free appetizer plus free breakfast meals for as long as you have HelloFresh. I’m not getting paid to say this. This honestly blew me away lol and I will post my total in the comments. Thought it could help someone else out. You can click on the link and it’ll bring you right to the special that I got.

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03/05/2026

Since my pain has always been unmanaged really, it always seems like the medicines I’m on were not working so we finally tried to switch it to another extended release common pill and this is what my insurance comes back with. I’m just so annoyed and defeated. I hate insurance companies. So pretty much if I don’t fork out $2000 a month I don’t get the pain relief that will work for me.  I asked if it was possible for my doctor to appeal it and I really hope it is. Such BS. can’t wait to hear back on how that goes. 🙄😭 I genuinely need this relief so bad. I can’t even afford medical cannabis anymore to help curb it which helped the most. This is not fun.  I wish they could live with my Pain for a little bit and then see how much of a rush they’re in to get that taken care of. 

03/04/2026

This is just a trend, but it is something cancer patients constantly deal with 😔 show up for your people! No one should go through this stuff alone.

03/04/2026

“This one is for the woman who’s sick… and doing it without support.

The woman whose partner checked out mentally, emotionally, or physically the moment her body stopped being convenient.

The woman who’s holding her life together with a cracked soul, shaky breath, and a strength she never asked to develop.

The woman who reads posts about supportive spouses and thinks, “I’m happy for you…but that’s not my story.”

I want you to hear me clearly…I see you. I honor you. I know your pain in a way most people don’t.

When I talk about my husband now…my steady, loving, 21-year safe place….please know I’m not speaking from a fairytale.

I’m speaking from a place I had to fight my way toward. Because over 24 years ago, I had a different kind of story.

I was young. I was pregnant. I was fighting cancer. And the man I was married to…walked away.

He left in the middle of one of the darkest chapters of my life.

So when I say I understand the heartbreak of being sick and unsupported, I mean I’ve tasted that abandonment. I’ve cried those tears. I’ve lived the nights where you stare at the ceiling with tears in your eyes and whisper, “No one is coming. It’s just me.”

That kind of pain leaves a mark. A lifelong imprint. A before-and-after.

But here’s what I want to tell you, woman to woman…his inability to love you through your illness was never a reflection of your worth. You did nothing wrong.

Your illness didn’t break your relationship… it revealed it.

And the fact that you’ve kept going, kept fighting, kept living inside a body that demands everything from you…that makes you extraordinary.

Some women survive sickness with support.

You survived without it. That’s a different level of strength.

So if you’re reading this and your heart feels heavy because your story doesn’t look like mine now, please hear me….

You are not less lovable. You are not less deserving. You are not less loved by God. You are not less strong. You are not “less family material.” You are not less anything.

You are a warrior who never got to take her armor off.

And whether your future brings a partner who knows how to love you deeply, or your healing journey continues to be one you navigate solo…you are already worthy, already whole, already powerful.

Your story is not a lesser story. Your strength is not invisible. Your worth is not diminished by what you didn’t receive.

Some women walk their illness with a partner holding their hand. Some walk it holding their own hand and that is a different, powerful kind of bravery.

So if this is you…

You are a warrior who had to grow your own wings.

And whether someone someday loves you through the hard…or you continue building a life where you stand tall on your own terms…you are worthy, whole, strong, and deeply seen.

I honor your story. I honor your strength. And I will always make space for you here.”

03/04/2026

For anyone with a loved one with cancer or cancer themselves - you can request this box and there are also other cancer organizations that send care packages and if anyone would like to know the ones that I have received please let me know!

02/19/2026

But for real, I think I'm used to the trauma.

02/18/2026

SWEET BABY JESUS, THANK YOU GOD! My tumor markers are DOWN!! My new drug Trodelvy is working on the cancer! Here’s to a long time working!!

02/17/2026

I’m aliiiiiiiive!!! 😅🫣 and in slightly less pain for a good-ish little update