01/11/2023
Today I pulled a card from a deck by Louise Hay.
The front message is “Freedom is my divine right”.
I giggled because freedom is my number one value and it is also my temperament. Based on the Keirsey Bates Temperament Sorter freedom is the way I organize my life, meaning I don't really organize my life.
I hate committing to appointments or meeting times, and it’s a struggle to organize my time. I most frequently am late to things. This is embarrassing to me because the world runs on schedules.
Also, valuing freedom feels irresponsible in some way. Society likes linear thinking. Have a goal. Work step by step. Arrive at goal. I go off track often. I see squirrels and butterflies everywhere.
When I read the back of the card, I felt relief, and pride. It said, “I am free to think wonderful thoughts. I move beyond past limitations into freedom. I am now becoming all that I am created to be”.
I was relieved to be reminded of a positive spin on freedom. Rather than embarrassing and irresponsible, it felt filled with possibilities and hope for the future.
I remembered a teaching from an old sponsor that most often our first thought is negative. We train ourselves to go to that second thought. The reframe. Eventually it becomes a habit and the second thoughts come faster the longer we’re sober.
My EGCM training has taught me that critical thoughts and limiting beliefs are most often old messages. I heard them, swallowed them whole and adopted them as my own. Having this awareness is the first step in changing. Doing the deeper work takes the reactivity or charge out of it.
Obviously I am a work in progress but I was reminded that I have improved along my journey. I am changing my thinking to more positivity. I am moving beyond limitations. I am becoming all that I'm created to be.
My journey can be slow and difficult at times. I continue on no matter how slow, how difficult, how much I doubt myself. I remember that this too shall pass. I have learned to trust the process.
If anything I have said resonates with you, if you want to explore your limiting beliefs, temperament or values, please reach out. You are not alone.