09/21/2022
Hello friends! Iāve decided to start a page to share my story with being a mom and struggling with generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder. Iām not really sure what Iām doing here but I know that most times I feel so alone in this battle. I know there are other mammas out there who are going through the same thing I am. Most times we just donāt talk about it, or we pretend everythingās fine even though on the inside we are hurting. I find most times we get labeled as rude, angry, impatient, snotty, etc. for me I know I portray those words in my actions but itās not because I am those things. Itās because Iām fighting a battle inside my body and head that makes me not even pay attention to what it looks like on the outside a lot of the time. Itās too hard to care about both. I find myself snapping at my kids or just not giving them the time they deserve because Iām fighting a battle inside. In the silence I beat myself up about it and I feel so guilty.ā¦ā¦but, I also know I love my family. I love my kids and I am trying my absolute best with the cards I was dealt. I am always actively trying to better myself and find new ways to cope with my mental health. One of the biggest reasons I want to start this page to not only support others who struggle but also for those who donāt struggle with the mental Illness themselves but have loved ones who do. So that maybe you can begin to understand the whyās. Understand that we are trying and that we want nothing more than to be ānormalā. Itās a daily battle, some days are better than others. But at the end of the day we love and we deserve love. Keep fighting mammas.
