01/03/2026
Today, I celebrate four years of sobriety.
This milestone didn’t come from a place of drama or rock bottom. It came from truth. From clarity. From finally listening to myself.
For a long time, I tried to have a relationship with alcohol because it’s acceptable in our society. Normalized. Expected. Woven into celebrations, stress relief, connection, and coping. I tried to make it work. But the truth is, I hated how I felt when I drank. I didn’t like how I thought. I didn’t like what it did to my body, my mind, or my spirit. My health and wellbeing were never better for it—only quieter, dulled, disconnected.
I had flirted with sobriety before. There were seasons when I refrained—while navigating fertility, while my children were babies, during stretches when life required more presence. But nothing truly stuck. Not because I didn’t know alcohol wasn’t serving me—but because I couldn’t yet make myself important enough to quit for good.
And then something shifted.
Four years ago, I was simply done.
No bargaining. No exceptions. No “maybe someday.” Just a deep, settled knowing that my children deserved a parent who was sober and fully present. That truth became my beginning. My first why. It wasn’t rooted in shame or fear—it was rooted in love. Love for them, yes, but also a love that was slowly awakening for myself.
That “why” has expanded over the years.
Sobriety gave me clarity—the kind that lets you hear your own inner voice again. It brought connection—to my body, my intuition, my relationships, my life. It supported my health, both mental and physical, in ways I didn’t fully understand until I was living them. And it planted seeds of longevity—not just living longer, but living more fully, more honestly, more awake.
Through realization, I came to honor my own worth.
I deserved to be sober.
I deserved to heal.
I deserved clarity and connection.
And so do you, if you’re standing at the edge of your own becoming.
Today, I celebrate myself. Not with grand gestures, but with deep gratitude. With reverence for the woman I was, the woman I am, and the woman I continue to become.
Here’s to many more years of presence, healing, and choosing myself—again and again.