02/18/2026
It’s been over a week since I have returned from Bali. I am still integrating the many profound experiences I had in the last month. Staying in solitude with myself has been a natural flow and I believe it has served to allow me to slowly integrate the new forms of flow that are moving through my consciousness. I have been slowly re-connecting with friends beginning this week.
I have noticed a more confident flow in my treatment sessions with less desire to operate in the “need to accomplish something” and a comfort with taking my time. This is another example of the basic myofascial principles of the long hold and not forcing manifesting as no need to rush.
I have noticed that I can often get trapped in the description of a healing process and instead of doing it, I can move to the next description as if describing something would manifest it. I am having a new relationship with John’s insistence to engage without talking as much as possible. There is certainly a place for descriptions within integration, but you have to have the experience first, which is far beyond any description.
Putting this into practice has presented itself in ways new to me in my sessions since I have been back. I have had the realization that our story, which is often a projection, can help us connect with the emotion. Once there is connection with the emotion, I have encouraged my clients to let go of the story and follow the sensation. And in the cases of sadness, pain, grief, anger, and other perceived “difficult” emotions I have directed my clients to remove the label and experience them as different energies or “flavors.”
Even “positive” emotions can be experienced this way, because labeling something as positive automatically creates its shadow and a desire to hold on to the positive state instead of staying in the flow of what is, which is what happens when we really “let go.” This direct experience without naming further removes any subtle judgements implied by the labels and allows the pure experience to guide. This demonstrates that we can have “pain” but suffering is optional.
While I was in Bali, I really felt an embodiment of John’s words and teachings in so many of my experiences. I had real sense of his blessing. It has given me a new confidence in how I show up, not only as a therapist, but as a human being.