04/18/2026
I often wonder…
I look at you and see the most handsome boy.
The kind of face that could be on a magazine.
The kind of smile that should light up a room with ease.
And sometimes… I wonder what your life would look like if things had gone differently.
Who you would be.
What you would be doing at 13.
What conversations we’d be having.
What dreams you’d be chasing.
Those thoughts can get heavy if I let them stay too long.
Because the truth is…
Your life didn’t just change you - it changed me. It changed all of us.
Because of you, I learned so much.
Because of you, I question everything.
Because of you, I became an advocate, a fighter, a voice.
Because of you, I built a life and a purpose I never would have found otherwise.
Because of you, your siblings are growing up differently - stronger, more aware, more intentional.
You didn’t just shift our path… you defined it. You are why I show up every day, even when I have nothing left to give.
And while I still have those moments where I wonder “what if”, I remind myself that this life is temporary.
That every test has meaning. That maybe God tested me with you as a way to get closer to Him.
So instead of staying in the “what if,” I come back to what is.
And what is…
is a boy who is deeply loved.
A boy who changed everything.
A boy who continues to teach me, refine me, and soften me in ways nothing else ever could.
I don’t have all the answers.
But I do have you. And I love you so much! Even on the days that feel impossible.
And I will spend every day of this life loving you, fighting for you, and giving you the very best of me.