02/05/2026
QHHT session notes Jan 2026:
“Tatiana” sees a dank lake from a view high up on a cliff with a blue sky
She notices herself as an adult male wearing animal skin boots and clothing, long hair
standing on a cliff above the lake, looking over.
I ask if there are any smells, if there are any sounds, she begins to weep and cry. and said there was nothing, there was no life left.
It was a deep, deep sorrow.
She said again there was nothing left.
Everything has been destroyed.
I asked her to look behind her to see if we could see something else. She said there was nothing behind her but black.
I asked about the sky. She said she could not see the sun. There were no clouds. The sky was a dark blue.
She said she was seeing herself as if she were standing behind herself, looking. And the back of her body was completely burned. Her hair was all burned off in the back. The back of her clothes were charred, and burned.
She was grieving. and continued to say, "They're all gone. It was all destroyed.”
As the story progresses, she realizes she created this planet and this experience as an experiment alongside a collective
Her first response is anger and unbelief
She soon understands why the experiment was necessary and the anger melts into compassion.
There is much insight into the inner workings of the Higher Conscious, the origin of the Oversoul and the consequences of choosing intelligence over consciousness as a society.
Later, as we connect with the Higher Consciousness and receive permission to ask questions we learn:
Her physical symptoms (cancer, scalp issues, fatigue) are not interruptions of her path, but gateways into it.
* Cancer was a karmic contraction: a recalibration of intensity to humility, and a conscious rebirth. It forced stillness so the emotional body could speak.
* Psoriasis began during awakening because her crown was opening—faster than the energy could discharge.
* Her illnesses flare in moments of fear around expansion, not contraction.
There is a recurring spiritual archetype here: The Fractured Priestess—one whose power was feared in previous timelines, and who now must heal by remembering rather than performing.
She must not mistake boredom for a lack of purpose.
Stillness is not stagnation—it is subtle potency.
One poignant response to a question:
Subconscious:
“She has some fear to release, though. And it's not fear of the cancer. And it's not fear of death. It's a fear of her expansion.”
Me:
“Yes, she did say that she did feel unworthy of her connection to source. What is the root cause of that feeling of unworthiness?”
Subconscious:
“The trust was gone because the power that was within her in a previous incarnation, she used that for destruction.”
Me:
“What's her connection to Lemuria?”
Subconscious:
“She was one of the originals. She was one of the first volunteers. to incarnate onto this planet in Lumeria. to come down from a frequency way above and a density way above, a very painful transition.”
Me:
“Why was it painful?”
Subconscious:
“Incarnating into human form was quite, quite difficult, quite painful, coming from a higher density. to go into this form. It's quite uncomfortable. to be stuck in them, what you call meat suit, is very, very uncomfortable. especially from higher dimensions.. To be restricted. And there was not quite as much restriction in those days. There was more abilities. There was the ability to fly There was the ability to become one with the earth and go deep into the core. There is one to be one with the waters and flow with the water. upon will. There was one to shift into the animals and feel their presence from within. As time went on. the density is lowered. and much changed. to have what you call now the human experience. That was not possible before. and to come to a place with many other races, many other peoples. This had not been done before. You had many people from many different planets. From many different densities, for many different timelines. They came upon the earth at the time of Lumeria. or Mu or Agartha, many names.”
Final Message to “Tatiana” from the Subconscious:
“Continue to trust- that is the best gift you can give yourself. Trust within herself, trust her intuition. Trust her heart. She is on the correct path. She is in the correct space. just to continue to stay humble to remember her origin source, and to remember She is Source. All is possible, no limits. believe, trust, know.”
