07/09/2024
Long AND vulnerable post! 🫣
I was reflecting this morning on how much I used to let my fears rule my life.
I dropped my son off at camp this morning where he knew no one.
I felt the projections of my childhood take over.
“Would he make friends? Would he be ok? What if something happens to him and no one helps him? What if he feels left out and has a horrible day?” (He had an incredible day btw which confirmed my projections).
I remember being so scared of new situations when I was growing up.
Being out of my comfort zone was terrifying!
I was fearful introducing myself,
fearful talking to new people or having to ask for help or a question.
It was so hard for me! I had fears of being rejected, fears of being judged, fears of looking dumb, fears of something bad happened if I spoke up.
This carried on through college. When I was 19 I found a career path I was so excited and passionate about: naturopathic medicine.
Part of my graduation requirements were to teach classes publicly, which landed me in a situation where someone in the audience challenged my teachings.
This experience activated my fears (as a felt reality) and I completely sabotaged myself by dropping out of the program.
I dropped out because of fear of being judged, of people thinking I was ‘weird’ that I was learning “woo woo” stuff. This was over 20 years ago now but it lead me to choose a “safe” path. A path that was acceptable to the masses.
I went into social work. I did traditional psychotherapy bc people knew what that was, and I wouldn’t get any push back.
And while I love helping people, the route of traditional psychotherapy is not my route. It is not how or why I came here to the planet to help people. I have learned this now, and my work on the planet is continuing to evolve to the next layer of fears….
A few of months ago, a HUGE vision came to me.
One that stretches me more then I have ever been stretched.
This has led to new opportunities, one being asked to be interviewed and have a conversation that will most likely have me sharing things I believe deeply in, but are also controversial.
My fear is that it could lead to people not liking me, or worse, hating me.
Things that I believe so deeply in my soul, but some are not aware or awakened to yet.
So my fears have risen.
The little girl in me that wants to hide is coming up.
The little girl that wants to be the 'good girl' so everyone likes me is coming up.
The little girl in me that wants to play small and act 'dumb' so no one expects much from me is coming up.
ANDDD in the past, when I didn't have the tools I have now (and will be sharing in my upcoming Clear the Fear workshop), I succumbed to those fears. Those fears, in the past, were in the drivers seat, and sabotaged me, TIME and TIME again.
Now?
Now, I am here to face it ALL.
To HEAL it all.
To release it all.
Because I know I am meant for big things in this world.
I know what I came to the planet in this lifetime for.
And leading workshops such as these are only a small fraction of what I am meant to be bringing.
Do you feel you are meant for more but are holding yourself back or sabotaging yourself?
Subconsciously we are afraid of what will happen if:
🫣 things get better,
😱 we FEEL better,
🫢 we speak our truth or
🫣 feel more powerful or confident
Why?
Because our ego wants to feel safe. The subconscious mind operates like a 5 year old. It wants familiar, even if familiar means we are unhappy, anxious or miserable.
To stretch ourselves BEYOND our comfort zone is scary as hell.
Especially to our subconscious mind.
The ways I have learned to move through fear and end self sabotage, I am sharing with you in my next workshop, Clear the Fear!
I will be leading you through Body + Energy based practices such as
⭐️ Light Leader Kundalini™,
⭐️ Somatic Movement + Breathwork
⭐️ Inner Child Healing and
⭐️ Clear Energy Therapy™
I will be holding this workshop virtually AND in person this month!
Here are all the details:
Clear the Fear Virtual Workshop
🌟 Thursday, July 25th at 11:00 AM EST
On Zoom
💫 Register here: https://innerguidance.myflodesk.com/clearthefearvirtual
Use code: CLEARFEAR for $10 off (available for a limited time)
Clear the Fear In Person Workshop
🌟 Friday, July 26th at 10:00 AM EST
Simplicity Healing
Rochester Hills, Michigan
💫 Register here: https://innerguidance.myflodesk.com/clearthefearinperson
Use code: CTF10OFF for $10 off (available this week only!)
If you find that you are desiring something in your life, career, business or relationships, but are met with
🚫 negative thoughts
🚫 self critical / judgmental of yourself
🚫 imposter syndrome
🚫 procrastination
🚫 perfectionism
you are sabotaging your desires due to underlying fears.
If you made it this far and it resonates, join me to heal + clear those fears! This will allow you to take bold action in your life and bring your deepest desires into fruition ❤️