11/11/2025
I wore a full-on bodysuit to a music event this weekend. For the first time in my life... at 42.
That might not sound like much, but for me, it was everything. It was one of those quiet milestones that only I could really feel the depth of... the kind that comes after DECADES of working to feel safe in a body that’s carried so much.
I lost a drastic amount of WEIGHT 22 years ago, long before motherhood. And while people celebrated it, I was quietly drowning in what came after.
No one talks about the grief that follows weight loss. The way your body becomes unfamiliar... the loose skin that tells the story of what once was, the ghosts of the weight that still live in your reflection, the constant recalibration of how to exist in a new form.
Everyone said I should feel proud. And while I was... I also felt disoriented. Like I’d shed one version of myself but hadn’t yet found home in the new one. And then motherhood came. And that brought a different kind of transformation... one that stretched me far beyond the physical. The exhaustion, the hormones, the ways your body becomes an extension of someone else’s needs for years.... and becomes even more unrecognizable.
The love and sacrifice. The strength and depletion.
There were years I couldn’t look at my reflection without flinching. Not because I hated what I saw, but because I didn’t recognize her. This body has been everything... big, small, strong, broken, soft, scarred, stretched, sacred. It has held grief, love, life, loss. It has held me.
But it’s taken me decades to hold it back.
So this weekend, when I put on that bodysuit... I felt something I haven’t felt maybe ever... truly at peace.... and sexy AF.
I didn’t put it on for anyone else. I didn’t wear it to be seen. I wore it because I finally could. Because I’m tired of apologizing for the evidence of my life. And for the first time, I TRULY felt safe enough to take up space in my body, in my joy, in my truth.
And when a woman finally feels safe in her body, the freak in her wakes up. The one who’s playful, magnetic, sensual, and free. The one who’s not dressing for the male gaze, but for her own liberation.
And that kind of embodiment… that quiet, sexy, sovereign reclamation… is not for the weak.
This is the work I do now... helping others come home to themselves. Not by bypassing the hard parts, but by learning to feel safe enough to inhabit them. To move, to breathe, to grieve, to laugh, to dance, to take up space.
If you’re ready to remember what it feels like to be in your body again… my embodiment and somatic sessions are the doorway home.