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Back to Self Bodywork Licensed Massage Therapist,
Certified Bowenwork Therapist
Lic. # MA60629296 Hi I'm Caran.

I'm a widowed mom of two teenage boys and I've been a massage therapist since 2015. I chose to become a LMT so I could help my boys with anxiety and growing pains, as well as nurture other widows. I've always known the power of touch, but more so since my husband died. I strive to provide comfort and positive energy with all my clients, as well connect with them on a deeper, holistic level. I'm very happy that you've visited my page and I look forward to seeing you soon!

12/05/2025

The Anatomy of Being Dismissed

There is an ache that settles in when the body keeps speaking, but no one truly hears it. You feel off, unsteady, uncomfortable in ways that don’t make sense, yet every test comes back perfect. The scans are clear. The bloodwork is normal. The doctor smiles and reassures you that everything is fine, and still the pain hums beneath the surface. What begins as confusion slowly becomes self-doubt, as though the body’s truth is somehow an exaggeration.

The reality is far more compassionate. Pain does not always originate in organs or lab values. It often begins with experience. Trauma reorganizes the nervous system, changes how the brain processes sensation, alters muscle tone, and thickens fascia through years of bracing. Research by Stephen Porges, Bessel van der Kolk, and Helene Langevin shows that unresolved stress, chronic overwhelm, and unexpressed emotion can live in the tissues long after the moment has passed. These patterns cannot be detected by imaging because they are woven into the body rather than broken within it.

The body learns to survive by holding. The jaw clenches. The diaphragm tightens. The shoulders lift. The pelvic floor contracts. Fascia adapts to these patterns, binding old protective strategies into posture, breath, circulation, lymphatic flow, and nervous system behavior. This architecture of tension can create pain, fatigue, migraines, digestive distress, dizziness, and emotional heaviness even when every medical marker looks pristine. Normal test results do not negate real suffering. They simply mean the story lives in a deeper layer.

Bodywork becomes powerful in these hidden landscapes. Through touch, we listen to places the medical world cannot see. Releasing the diaphragm restores vagal tone. Unwinding the neck and sacrum quiets the reflexes the brainstem has held for years. Slow myofascial work softens patterns shaped by fear and endurance. Lymphatic techniques reduce stagnation that mimics illness. Emotional body mapping helps clients understand how their history became sensation.

For every client who has been dismissed, minimized, or told “it’s all in your head,” this work offers something radically different. A place where your experience matters. A place where fascia, nervous system, breath, and story are treated as parts of the same truth. A place where healing does not begin with data, but with understanding.

For Body Artisans, this is the heart of our craft. We do not treat symptoms. We witness the human beneath them.

12/05/2025

Bowen Therapy is a simple, gentle, and holistic technique that works in harmony with the body to support natural balance and wellbeing. Developed by Tom Bowe...

11/30/2025

Lipedema. Lymphedema. Lipo-lymphedema.
So many of our clients arrive with these words written in their chart, but very few have ever had them truly explained.

I like to imagine these conditions as what happens when the body’s rivers and riverbanks begin to struggle. The lymphatic system is the river that carries excess fluid, proteins, immune cells, and metabolic waste back toward the heart. Fascia and connective tissue form the riverbanks, guiding and containing that flow. When either is overwhelmed, the landscape changes.

In lipedema, the change begins in the fat tissue itself. It is not “just weight.” It is a chronic, progressive disorder of subcutaneous adipose tissue, almost always affecting women, in which fat cells and the surrounding connective tissue become enlarged, tender, and inflamed, most commonly from the hips to the ankles, while the feet are often spared.  Clients describe aching, heaviness, and easy bruising. Research shows micro-inflammation around blood vessels, fibrosis in the fascia, and early lymphatic overload, which means the very terrain that should glide and cushion instead feels crowded, pressurized, and sore. 

Lymphedema is a different, but related story. Here, the lymphatic vessels themselves cannot keep up. Protein-rich fluid accumulates in the interstitial spaces because drainage is impaired, either due to a genetic weakness in the system (primary) or to damage such as surgery, radiation, infection, or trauma (secondary).  Over time, chronic swelling can lead to increased fibrosis, fat deposition, skin changes, and increased vulnerability to infection. The river slows and thickens; the banks harden.

When lipedema persists long enough, the overloaded lymphatics can begin to fail, and lipolymphedema emerges: disproportionate, painful fat plus true lymphatic swelling layered on top of each other.  This is often the client who tells you, with shame in their voice, that they have been told to “just lose weight,” even though dieting has never changed the shape or pain of their legs.

So how do we, as bodyworkers, help in a way that is both safe and meaningful?

First, we honor that this is a medical condition, not a character flaw. Many clients with lipedema or lymphedema arrive carrying years of dismissal and stigma. Our presence and language matter as much as our hands. We are not “fixing their legs.” We are helping a fluid-starved, overworked system find a little more room to breathe.

Second, we remember that these tissues are fragile, inflamed, and prone to overload. Deep, aggressive work is not helpful here. The research on lymphedema management consistently supports gentle manual lymph drainage, compression, movement, and meticulous skin care as core pillars of care.  Our work can harmonize with those pillars.

Gentle, rhythmic manual work can support lymph flow when we follow the anatomy. We always clear proximally first, creating space in the larger trunks and nodes near the abdomen, trunk, and groin before encouraging fluid from the more distal tissues. Think of it as opening the dam before inviting more water downstream. Very light pressure, skin-stretching techniques, and slow, wave-like motions are key. Lymphatic capillaries are superficial and delicate; they respond to whisper-light touch, not force.

Fascial work still has a place, but it needs to be re-imagined. Instead of sinking deeply into already painful tissue, we can focus on long, slow, melting contact that respects the direction of lymph flow and the client’s pain threshold. Restrictive fascial bands can act like tight rings around a swollen river, further impeding drainage. Gentle myofascial spreading around the hips, pelvis, abdomen, and diaphragm can help free these choke points and support better fluid dynamics without bruising or flare-ups.

Movement is therapy for both systems. Studies show that low-impact, rhythmic exercise such as walking, water aerobics, rebounder work, or gentle strength training in compression garments helps lymph pump more effectively and may improve symptoms in lipedema and lymphedema.  As bodyworkers, we can coach micro-movements: ankle pumps at the end of a session, diaphragmatic breathing to create a pressure piston through the trunk, and small gliding motions of the arms and legs. At the same time, the tissues are warm and supported.

We can also advocate for the practical tools that make a huge difference day to day: properly fitted compression, pneumatic pumps when appropriate, elevation, and collaboration with medical and lymphatic specialists. Our treatment room becomes one piece of a long-term self-care ecosystem.

Emotionally, these clients often live in bodies that feel “too big,” “too heavy,” or “betraying.” The shape of their legs or arms is not a reflection of willpower, yet the world often treats it that way. Our table can be the rare place where their body is met with curiosity instead of judgment. Where we name what we see: the peau d’orange texture, the cuffing at the ankles, the tenderness to touch, the symmetrical pattern that says “lipedema,” not laziness. Simply understanding the pattern is a form of relief.

In Body Artisan work, I like to think of sessions for lipedema and lymphedema as tending a tidal marsh. We warm the tissues. We invite slow tides of movement with our hands. We clear the main channels, then softly encourage the pooled waters to find their way home. We track the client’s nervous system the entire time, keeping them in a state of safety and rest so the body can prioritize drainage rather than defense.

No single session will erase a chronic fluid disorder. But every session can offer less pressure, less ache, more space, and more dignity. Over time, with thoughtful touch, movement, compression, and collaboration, the river and its banks can work together again.

To every client living with lipedema, lymphedema, or lipo-lymphedema: you are not your diagnosis, and you are not alone. Your body is not failing; it is adapting under enormous load. Our work as body artisans is to meet that adaptation with science in our hands, compassion in our hearts, and a deep respect for the quiet courage it takes to live in a body that feels heavy and keep moving toward lightness.

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11/26/2025

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11/25/2025

🌿 The Lymphatic System of a Griever — 9/30
When You Are the One Who Holds Everything Together
By Bianca Botha, CLT | RLD | MLDT & CDS

There is a specific kind of grief that lives in the bodies of those who have always been “the strong one.”
The one who carries the weight.
The one who shows up.
The one who arranges, organises, fixes, comforts, rescues, pays, drives, manages, negotiates…
And the one who never gets to fall apart.

It is the grief of being the person everyone turns to —
while secretly wishing, even just once,
there was someone who could turn to you.

💔 The Hidden Burden of Being “The Responsible One”

When you are the go-to person, you become the backbone of the family.
Not because you asked for it,
but because life quietly placed the responsibility in your hands.

You became:
• The financial anchor
• The emotional stabiliser
• The logistics coordinator
• The medical advisor
• The crisis negotiator
• The caretaker everyone depends on

And while you were being strong for everyone else,
you tucked your own pain into the corners of your body —
places where no one could see.

But your lymphatic system did.

Our biology does not lie.
It remembers every unspoken emotion, every swallowed tear, every moment you held your breath and carried on.

🧠 When You Are the Fixer, You Don’t Get to Grieve Like Others Do

Grief changes shape when you are responsible for others.
You don’t get to collapse.
You don’t get to pause your world.
You don’t get to hand your weight to someone else.

You are expected to:
• Show up on time
• Make the phone calls
• Pay the bills
• Manage the chaos
• Comfort everyone
• Hold the family together

Meanwhile… your own heart aches quietly in the background —
like a song no one else hears.

And if you’re honest,
the deepest part of your grief isn’t only about what you lost.
It’s about what you never had.

The safe person.
The one who could carry you.
The one who could say, “Rest. I’ve got you.”
The one who would take your burdens for a while.

🌬️ The Body of the Strong One Eventually Speaks

When you spend your life being “the one who holds everything,”
your lymphatic system absorbs the emotional overflow.

Because when you don’t have space to cry,
your body cries for you.

When you don’t have time to rest,
your tissues hold the exhaustion.

When you don’t have permission to be vulnerable,
your vagus nerve shuts down.

When you don’t have someone to lean on,
your shoulders become your scaffolding.

This is why the strong ones often experience:
• Neck tightness
• Shoulder tension
• Lymph congestion
• Chest heaviness
• Deep fatigue
• Bloating
• Restless sleep
• Waves of unexplainable sadness

It is not weakness.
It is evidence of a heart that has carried more than its share.

🌱 The Grief of Not Having “Your Person”

There is a quiet heartbreak in realising that while you catch everyone else…
no one is standing behind you.

You are the first phone call when things go wrong.
You are the emergency plan.
You are the decision-maker, the negotiator, the strong voice, the emotionally stable one.

But when you need support,
the room becomes quiet.

This grief is not loud.
It is lonely.

It’s the grief of longing for:
• Someone to plan for you
• Someone to hold you
• Someone to say, “I’ll take care of it”
• Someone who knows your story without you explaining
• Someone who sees the weight on your shoulders
• Someone who reminds you that you’re allowed to be human

🩷 To the Ones Who Carry the World: This Is Your Permission

You are allowed to grieve the fact that you do not have someone who does for you what you do for others.

You are allowed to wish for support.
You are allowed to long for a soft place to land.
You are allowed to want a partner in responsibility.
You are allowed to be tired.
You are allowed to be human.

And most importantly —
you are allowed to rest.

Your lymphatic system does not need you to be perfect.
It needs you to pause.
To breathe.
To let something go.
To be held — even if it’s just by your own kindness for now.

Because even the strongest pillars need somewhere to lean.

11/19/2025

How many of you remember studying receptors in massage school? If not, here's a crash course. (Mechanoreceptors will be a later post.)

When bodyworkers understand essential receptors, touch can become more intentional, attuned, and far more powerful. Three important sensory systems for hands-on work are proprioception, nociception, and interoception, all of which are richly represented within the fascial network.

Proprioceptors are the body’s sense of place. They tell us where we are in space, how we move, how deeply we bend, and how our joints align without ever having to look. Proprioceptors play a crucial role in creating graceful movement and maintaining stable posture, and they are intricately woven into the fascia. When fascia is stiff, dehydrated, or restricted, proprioception becomes foggy. Clients may feel clumsy, ungrounded, or disconnected from their bodies. When fascia slides freely, proprioception sharpens. Movement becomes fluid, and clients feel more at home in themselves.

Nociceptors are the body’s danger signals. They alert the system when something feels threatening, irritating, or potentially harmful. These receptors do not just convey pain; they convey context. They tell the brain when tissue is overstretched, inflamed, or overly tense. Many nociceptors are embedded in fascial tissues, which explains why fascial restriction can heighten sensitivity or contribute to chronic discomfort even without structural damage. When fascia softens and glides, nociceptors calm.

Interoceptors are the quiet storytellers of the internal world. They tell us how we feel on the inside. Hunger, fullness, breath, pressure, warmth, emotion, intuition, and the subtle sense of safety or threat all come from interoception. These receptors are found throughout the fascial layers, especially in the visceral fascia. Interoception is the doorway through which emotion becomes sensation and sensation becomes awareness. When fascial tension decreases, interoception becomes clearer. Clients often describe this as feeling more present, more connected, or more alive.

Recent research has shown that fascia is not just connective tissue. It is one of the most densely innervated sensory systems in the entire body. In fact, fascia contains more sensory nerve endings than muscles, far more than tendons, and even more diverse sensory fibers than joints.

Researchers like Schleip, Langevin, Stecco, and Wilke have shown that fascia is not a passive wrapping. It behaves like a sensory organ, sending constant information to the brain about tension, breath, pressure, emotion, and safety.

11/17/2025

🦵 Baker’s Cyst: When Inflammation Overflows the Joint

By Bianca Botha, CLT, RLD, MLDT & CDS
Lymphatica – Lymphatic Therapy & Body Detox Facility

Disclaimer: This article is for informational purposes only and is not a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. Always consult your healthcare provider before making any medical decisions or changes to your health regimen.

🔍 What Is a Baker’s Cyst?

A Baker’s cyst, also known as a popliteal cyst, is a fluid-filled sac that forms at the back of the knee — specifically between the medial head of the gastrocnemius and the semimembranosus tendon.

It develops when synovial fluid, the lubricating fluid inside the knee joint, leaks into a small bursa (a fluid-filled sac) behind the knee. This usually happens because the knee joint is inflamed or overloaded — causing excess synovial production and pressure within the joint capsule.

Over time, that pressure forces fluid out into the bursa, creating a pocket or “cyst” that may fluctuate in size depending on movement, activity level, and inflammation.

⚕️ Common Causes

Baker’s cysts are secondary symptoms, not primary problems. They usually develop alongside underlying knee conditions such as:
• Osteoarthritis or rheumatoid arthritis (chronic joint inflammation)
• Meniscal tears or cartilage injury
• Synovitis (inflammation of the joint lining)
• Knee trauma or repetitive strain

When the joint becomes irritated, the synovial membrane produces excess fluid as a protective response. This overwhelms the normal lymphatic and venous drainage pathways, resulting in fluid accumulation.

💥 Symptoms and Pain Pattern

The presentation can vary, but common features include:
• A visible or palpable bulge behind the knee (especially when standing)
• Tightness or fullness in the back of the knee
• Pain during knee flexion or extension
• Limited range of motion
• Aching down the calf, especially if the cyst is large
• Swelling in the lower leg or ankle, if the cyst compresses venous or lymphatic return

In some cases, the cyst may rupture, leaking fluid into the calf and mimicking symptoms of a deep vein thrombosis (DVT) — redness, warmth, and sudden swelling. This requires medical assessment to rule out clot formation.

💧 The Lymphatic Connection

The popliteal fossa (the hollow behind the knee) is home to an intricate network of popliteal lymph nodes and vessels. These nodes are key drainage points for:
• The lower leg
• The foot
• Portions of the thigh

When a Baker’s cyst expands, it can compress these lymphatic pathways, disrupting the upward flow of lymph and creating a localized “bottleneck.”

Consequences of this obstruction include:
• Lower-leg or ankle swelling
• A feeling of heaviness or tightness in the calf
• Delayed recovery after standing or walking
• Increased inflammatory burden due to reduced lymph clearance

Moreover, the persistent joint inflammation that triggers a Baker’s cyst often reflects systemic inflammatory processes — linking lymphatic stagnation, immune activation, and connective-tissue tension.

🩺 Medical Management

Treatment depends on the underlying cause:

1️⃣ Conservative therapy:
• Rest, elevation, and gentle compression (if no DVT risk)
• Anti-inflammatory management (NSAIDs, as prescribed)
• Physical therapy focusing on improving knee mobility and strength

2️⃣ Medical interventions:
• Ultrasound-guided aspiration (draining the cyst)
• Corticosteroid injection into the knee joint to reduce inflammation
• Arthroscopic surgery to repair meniscal or intra-articular damage in chronic cases

3️⃣ Supportive lymphatic care:
• Manual Lymphatic Drainage (MLD) to relieve pressure and promote resorption of interstitial fluid
• Reflexology Lymph Drainage (RLD) to enhance flow through the popliteal and inguinal pathways
• Gentle movement and diaphragmatic breathing to support natural lymph propulsion

🌿 Therapeutic Insight

A Baker’s cyst is a mechanical result of biochemical imbalance — the knee’s way of expressing overload. It’s not just “extra fluid,” but rather a visible sign that the body’s drainage systems — venous, lymphatic, and synovial — are struggling to keep equilibrium.

Addressing the underlying inflammation (arthritis, trauma, metabolic stress) while gently restoring lymph flow provides both symptom relief and long-term joint protection.

✨ Key Takeaway

A Baker’s cyst is more than a knee issue — it’s a window into how inflammation and stagnation can manifest physically.
By supporting the lymphatic system, reducing inflammatory triggers, and improving joint mobility, we help the body return to a state of natural flow and balance.

11/05/2025

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11/03/2025
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Hi I'm Caran. I'm a widowed mom of two teenage boys and I've been a massage therapist since February of 2016. I chose to become a LMT so I could help my boys with anxiety and growing pains, as well as nurture other widows. I've always known the power of touch, but more so since my husband died. I strive to provide comfort and positive energy with all my clients, as well connect with them on a deeper, holistic level. I'm very happy that you've visited my page and I look forward to seeing you soon!