02/18/2026
I used to think awakening meant I wouldn’t have messy parts anymore.
That if I was really present…
really conscious…
really embodied…
I wouldn’t rub up against perfectionism.
I wouldn’t feel overwhelmed.
I wouldn’t spiral when I thought I wasn’t getting it right.
But not too long ago, I met my inner perfectionist again.
And instead of trying to transcend her…
Or tell her this is how we used to be…
Or redirect her to creating something new…
I stayed.
I stayed present to the overwhelm.
To how out of control she feels when she thinks she might not be performing the right way — for herself or for others.
To how tired she actually is from being wired all the time.
And in that staying, she began to reveal something deeper.
She wasn’t trying to be perfect.
She was afraid.
Afraid of being judged by me.
Afraid of disappointing me.
Afraid that my “higher self” would look down and see she wasn’t capable.
Afraid that if she stopped striving, I would realize she wasn’t good enough… and leave her behind.
Underneath the story was just pain.
A part of me working so hard to protect me from ever being seen as unacceptable.
Unlovable.
In deep presence I told her:
It’s okay.
You don’t have to change.
You don’t have to do this differently.
I’m here.
And I’m not going anywhere.
And she relaxed.
She breathed.
She cried.
She felt safe.
Because really she was just looking to be aknowleged.
Accepted.
And loved.
Awakening, isn’t the absence of messy parts.
It’s the end of abandoning them.
So very human.
Yes.
So spiritual too.
Yes.
Fully, vulnerably, imperfectly human.
Yes. Yes. Yes.
Through my decade-long training as a transformational coach, combined with my channeling and work with Ohana, the Great Mother Whale, I’ve developed a unique approach to help us blend our human and spiritual aspects — to awaken without abandoning any part of ourselves.
Curious to experience this for yourself?
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Xoxo,
Elizabeth