02/03/2022
ā Itās ok to not be ok. Itās just not ok to stay that way. One thing I know about emotions is that they change. One hour from right now you will not feel the same way. I want to encourage you tonight, that you might be in your darkest moment, you might be going through hell and high water, it is always too soon to quit, you have a reason to live. God declares your best days are in front of you, get up, the future is brighter than your past, get up.ā
Mental Health Check In; I am in what I call āmy dark placeā
I am going to be real & raw with all of you so you know it is ok to feel the way you do. My dark place consists of worry, doubt, insecurity, staying up late & sleeping in way too late. Getting out of bed seems to be a struggle for me these days, forcing myself to get up mid afternoon. Overwhelming sadness takes over me leading me to cry on & off for days. Sometimes my sadness and my worries take over & it takes my thoughts to a place Iād never thought theyād go, to a place where my child is, sometimes I think how sweet it would be to go to the other side to be with Jayce, so I could meet the boy he is today, to see what he looks like today, to hear his voice, to be together.
For my family & friends reading this, please donāt worry, these are thoughts I know I would not follow through with, these are the thoughts of a grieving mother, we just wonder, always.
Everyday I feel myself getting closer to coming out of my dark place. I journal daily to get all of my thoughts and feelings on paper, I do things that make my soul feel good; that makes me feel happy in the present moment. I remind myself that better days are ahead and that when struggle is in front of you, success is on the horizon, just be patient and power through.
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