10/28/2025
Pause
I've learned the importance of pausing. I need to pause - especially when I'm unsure about something. I've learned that I'm an extrovert, and my tendency is to just talk, talk, talk. When I'm uncomfortable, I talk.
Back when I was drinking, alcohol filled that gap for me. Now I know to pause and be quiet and just listen. It's so impactful.
I'm at the point in my current job where I'll have all these people - the pharmacist, the doctor, and the research team - coming at me at once. There are days when I'm literally so quiet, because there's not enough time to react to what they're saying to me. They ask me, "Did you hear that?" I'm like, "Oh, yes I heard it. I'm just listening to you, and I'll revisit this in an hour after I've had a chance to look into it."
For me, that is a miracle. Really. Because when you're in the military, everything is quick, snap - right then and there. We have so much coming at us all the time.
For me, meditation has become crucial. I just need to pause and really listen to the universe.
Today I will pause instead of reacting right away.
~Anonymous, U.S. Air Force, 1997–2000