I Am Hope In The Chaos

I Am Hope In The Chaos Mental health advocate sharing lived experience. Bipolar I, PTSD, BPD. Speaker • Author • Certified Patient Leader • Podcaster. Real talk.

Raw truth. ✨

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~ Jamie Kodra ~

I’m not in a place today where I can wrap this up in hope.There are moments—real ones—where the pain feels like too much...
04/24/2026

I’m not in a place today where I can wrap this up in hope.

There are moments—real ones—where the pain feels like too much to carry.
Where your mind gets so loud, it tries to convince you there’s no way out.

And today… I’m just here.

No perfect message.
No “it gets better” speech.
No clear light I can point you to.

Just this:

Sometimes mental health isn’t about thriving.
Sometimes it’s not even about healing.

Sometimes it’s about making it through the night…
and showing up the next day however you can.

If you’re in that place—
where everything feels heavy, loud, or unbearable—

You’re not alone in that feeling.

We don’t have to pretend it’s okay.
We don’t have to force meaning out of it.

We can just be here.
One moment at a time.

That counts.

If you’re struggling and need someone to talk to, you can call or text 988 to reach the Su***de & Crisis Lifeline. You don’t have to be in immediate danger—you can just not be okay.


Sometimes life shifts in ways you didn’t plan for…And suddenly everything feels unfamiliar.The routines.The quiet.The wa...
04/22/2026

Sometimes life shifts in ways you didn’t plan for…
And suddenly everything feels unfamiliar.

The routines.
The quiet.
The way your heart carries things it never had to carry before.

There’s a kind of grief that comes with change —
even when you know it’s necessary.
Even when you’re doing the right thing.

And not all grief looks like sadness.
Sometimes it looks like:
• exhaustion
• overthinking
• feeling untethered
• trying to stay strong for everyone else

If you’re in a season where everything feels like it’s being rewritten…
give yourself permission to not have it all figured out.

You’re allowed to feel the loss and the relief.
The fear and the hope.
The breaking and the rebuilding — all at the same time.

You are not falling apart.
You are adjusting to a new version of your life.

And even here…
there is still hope in the chaos.

Some days, the voice in your head is louder than everything else.The doubt. The questioning. The feeling like you’re not...
04/19/2026

Some days, the voice in your head is louder than everything else.
The doubt. The questioning. The feeling like you’re not doing enough… or not being enough.

But here’s the truth we don’t always see—

While you’re picking yourself apart,
someone else is quietly watching you hold it together…
and wondering how you’re as strong as you are.

You don’t have to feel strong to be strong.

You’re showing up.
You’re still here.
And that matters more than you realize.

Save this for the days your mind tries to tell you otherwise 💚





Today is National Semicolon Day.And this one hits deeper than most.Because behind every semicolon is a story that didn’t...
04/16/2026

Today is National Semicolon Day.

And this one hits deeper than most.

Because behind every semicolon is a story that didn’t end…
even when it almost did.

For those who are struggling
For those fighting thoughts no one else can see
For those who feel alone, unheard, or too scared to speak up
For those who have survived
And for those carrying the pain of losing someone

You all matter more than you know.

I see you. I stand with you.
And I will keep speaking for you until you can speak for yourself.

There is always hope in the chaos.

The blue butterfly 🦋 has always held a special meaning in my life. My love for butterflies grew even deeper after my aun...
04/15/2026

The blue butterfly 🦋 has always held a special meaning in my life. My love for butterflies grew even deeper after my aunt passed away in 2010, and over the last few years, the meaning of the blue butterfly has become one of the most important symbols in my life.

And today, it means even more… because my sweet daughter made this beautiful blue butterfly for me for my birthday. Something so simple, yet so deeply meaningful.

To me, it represents self-discovery, transformation, joy, peace, and freedom from worry and sadness. It represents moving from darkness into light. It represents hope, endurance, and the reminder that we can survive even the deepest pain. For me, and for many others, it has come to symbolize surviving intense mental suffering, self-harm, and suicidal thoughts.

The blue butterfly is also used in meaningful ways for healing. Some use it as a reminder not to self-harm when drawn or placed on the wrist. It is also connected to the “butterfly hug,” a therapy technique used to help calm anxiety, trauma, and distress through gentle self-soothing taps that mimic butterfly wings.

Even the life of a butterfly is a journey of struggle. Inside the cocoon, there is challenge, change, and waiting. But after enduring that process, the butterfly emerges transformed.

That journey feels deeply familiar to those who live with mental health struggles. The path can be painful, heavy, and full of complexity. But with time, healing, and hope, transformation is possible.

Just as the butterfly changes on its journey, so can we.

These delicate creatures remind us that great beauty and strength can come from great darkness and struggle. They are living proof that we can emerge stronger, softer, and more beautiful than before.

Never give up. Never lose hope. Hold onto your wings 🪽 and soar—because there is always hope in the chaos. 🦋

04/14/2026

Reports show a military spouse commits su***de every 8 days.

Please read that again.

We lose a military spouse by su***de every eight days. This is unconscionable.

Today’s military spouses are not the stereotypical post-World War II spouses shaped and modeled by generations of spouses of yesteryear (traditionally female spouses from that time period) operating with societal expectations with a stern focus on reproducing, raising children, and domesticity in the home.

Military spouses are anything and everything—except vanilla. While a ton of present-day military spouses enjoy contributing to the growth and development of their service members’ careers through their active support, a large percentage of these same military spouses have careers of their own and straddle military and civilian worlds the very best they can while managing the homefront along with everyone they care about.

Mighty MilSpouse is dedicated to providing our military-connected community, especially military spouses, with the very best information, resources, and journalism intended for overall well-being. Military spouse su***de is a very real issue that we will not shy away from covering because it’s hard.

In fact, it’s quite the opposite. Because military spouse su***de has become so prevalent in our community, this is precisely why Mighty MilSpouse will continue to raise awareness, educate, and provide action-based support.

The weight is heavy; please allow your community to carry it with you.

Here’s the backstory.

Military dependent su***de data was first made available in 2017, sourced from the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) National Center for Health Statistics National Death Index. The NDI is a database of death record information compiled from state offices.

In Section 567. (B) of the “Carl Levin and Howard P. ‘Buck’ McKeon National Defense Authorization Act for Fiscal Year 2015” (Public Law 113–291), states that “any death that is reported as a su***de involving a dependent of a member of the Armed Forces” is required to be collected by the Department of Defense:

“567. Improved consistency in data collection and reporting in Armed Forces su***de prevention efforts (a) Policy for standard su***de data collection, reporting, and assessment (1) Policy required: The Secretary of Defense shall prescribe a policy for the development of a standard method for collecting, reporting, and assessing information regarding—(A) any su***de or attempted su***de involving a member of the Armed Forces, including reserve components thereof; and (B) any death that is reported as a su***de involving a dependent of a member of the Armed Forces.”

A “military family member,” also referred to as a “dependent of a member of the Armed Forces” above, is limited to spouses and dependent children (minor and non-minor) who are eligible to receive military benefits under Title 10 U.S. Code, where spouses and dependent children are registered in the Defense Enrollment Eligibility Reporting System (DEERS).

Providing background information on why, where, and when the data collection originated is a major first step in measurement for our military-connected community, given that we are such a close-knit subgroup of the American population.

Identifying needs, highlighting challenges, and demanding attention to crises move awareness to action.

We lost 98 military spouses by su***de according to the Department of Defense Office of the Under Secretary of Defense for Personnel and Readiness’ “2023 Annual Report on Su***de in the Military.” This was higher than in 2022, when 93 military spouses were reported.

Another notable finding in the 2023 report was the demographics of Military Spouse su***de. Counts and percentages reported in 2022 show that 47.3% were male and 52.7% were female, with the under-40 age group accounting for 78.5% and the over-40 age group accounting for 21.5%.

Now that we’ve identified that there is certainly a problem among spouses, we have to address it. So, what can we do to support military spouses in their deepest, darkest mindset?

Our collective military-connected community around the globe needs to acknowledge Military Spouse Su***de Awareness as a priority and put in the work to combat it.

If you or someone you know has experienced suicidal ideation, including active or passive thoughts, please know that your feelings of pain are very real. What is also real is that those same feelings will pass.

You can talk to someone you trust. Please share the weight and allow others to shoulder or carry the weight with you. But if it’s too heavy, we beg you to reach out for help from organizations committed to your well-being.

We Are The Mighty and the Mighty MilSpouse team will continue to elevate the issue of military spouse su***de. We will not stop raising awareness, educating, and providing action-based support to support our military spouses in their darkest hour.

***deAwareness

- Sara Jane Ginn

04/11/2026

Some people aren’t okay…
they’re just really good at pretending.

And that’s what makes this so dangerous.

Because the ones who are hurting the most
are often the ones still showing up,
still smiling,
still being everything for everyone else.

You don’t see the quiet battles.
You don’t hear the thoughts they fight alone.

And that’s exactly why I speak up.

Because mental health doesn’t always look broken.
Sometimes it looks like strength…
until it isn’t.

We need to do better.
To see deeper.
To listen closer.
To create a world where people don’t feel like they have to hide their pain to be accepted.

If you’re struggling and no one knows…
you are not alone in that silence.

And you don’t have to stay there.

There is always hope in the chaos.

Went for a bike ride for my health… for my mental health and my family. It was a beautiful day and a 5.6-mile reminder t...
04/10/2026

Went for a bike ride for my health… for my mental health and my family. It was a beautiful day and a 5.6-mile reminder that caring for ourselves matters.

I wore my shirt that says DEMAND MORE FOR MENTAL HEALTH, and that message hit even deeper now.

Yes, we need better care, more understanding, less stigma, and stronger support for mental health. We need to keep speaking up, stepping out of our comfort zones, and demanding more.

But we also have to remember that, when we can, there are ways to support our own mental health too. Things like exercise, sunshine, movement, deep breathing, and finding activities that bring us peace or joy can make a difference. Even when there is no cure for some serious mental health diagnoses, that does not mean there is no value in the small ways we care for ourselves.

Healing is not always simple, and it is not always linear. But the steps we take still matter.

So this is your reminder to take care of you however you can… and also to stand with me in demanding more for mental health. More compassion. More care. More action. More understanding.

Let’s break the stigma.
Let’s speak louder.
Let’s demand more for mental health.


If you are in a placewhere you feel unseen…unheard…unvalued…please hear me when I say this—that is not where you are mea...
04/08/2026

If you are in a place
where you feel unseen…
unheard…
unvalued…

please hear me when I say this—

that is not where you are meant to stay.

You are not too much.
You are not hard to love.
You are not invisible.

You are simply in a space
that does not know how to hold you.

And that is not your fault.

There are people out there
who will see you.
Who will hear you.
Who will value you without question.

You won’t have to beg for it.
You won’t have to shrink yourself for it.

You will just be…
and it will be enough.

I promise you—
you matter more than the places
that have made you question your worth.

So if where you are
is dimming your light…

find somewhere that lets you shine.





Your brain isn’t just “in your head”…it’s in your body too. 🧠 Movement isn’t about changing how you look—it’s about chan...
04/04/2026

Your brain isn’t just “in your head”…
it’s in your body too. 🧠

Movement isn’t about changing how you look—
it’s about changing how you feel.

When you move your body, you’re actually:
• lowering cortisol (stress hormone)
• boosting serotonin + dopamine (mood + motivation)
• releasing endorphins (your body’s natural antidepressant)
• improving focus, sleep, and emotional regulation

Even 10–15 minutes can shift your entire day.

This isn’t about perfection.
This isn’t about weight.

This is about survival some days…
and strength on others.

On the days your mind feels heavy,
move your body just enough to remind yourself—
you’re still here. And that matters. 💚

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