11/17/2025
The hardest struggle being a sibling su***de survivor of 2, is when people forget that we outlived our younger siblings, and we too wish we were dead, often, but fight because we learned the hard way the pain it causes others. I am often asked by untrained medical.professions, if I think about su***de. Well, obviously, everyday. I am a su***de prevention specialist, licensed and have tried to educate, advocate and protect vulnerable souls from su***des for over 25 years. It is an ignorant question to a survivor. A helpful question would be: I know you think about yiur sibling's su***des everyday, when you think about them, do you imagine what it would be like to be free of the pain?
My answer is yes. It could be a relief to die and be free of the grief, survivor guilt, psychophysical somatic pain, that gets worse with age, and different for every year I am older than them. It would be helpful if people asked me about them, as I am and will always be the oldest sister of 4, yet, we, the siblings, are the FORGOTTEN MOURNERS. No one talks about our childhood, our losses, how we had to be "perfect" to not worry our parents after their deaths and how we will also care for pur aging parents and bury them and grieve alone, because we have no siblings to help.
Those of us that have no children, cannot adopt because of the unethical.laws preventing us to.do so because of "high rosk familiar su***des", die alone, with no family around, and so, I stay alive, to help.others, because it is what I can do to HONOR my 2 younger siblings, that were mismedicated at childhood for ADHD, and overdosed with meds by untrained doctors, that didn't bother to look at the parents medical history.
Knowing what I know.now, as medical professional of 30 years, I could have helped save my siblings lives by advocating, but I was only 22 and 25, and was not warned of eminant death, as siblings are NOT included in Duty to Warn, only the oarents.
I will change the system, one medical.professional at a time, and soon, thousnads at a time, by finally teloing.ky story of success, advocacy and outrageuois discromination.by my own field of prefessionals, because I know what is right and wrong. I live it.
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