02/17/2023
Therapist says, I have a feeling thereās been a lot left unsaid.
So much. Left. Unsaid.
As a femme presenter, as a daughter of the addicted, as a brown person, as a mixed person, as a q***r person, as a person with trauma, as a person conditioned to stay small and serve, as a person abused and used and neglected for all phases of life thus far. Parts I can remember and those I have blocked.
There was so much left unsaid.
(And then they tell me Iām too much)
But they havenāt even heard the 1/2 of it.
No one holds their hands over my mouth but me and I will remove that hand and place it upon my heart instead, not in suppression but in tender loving support. I will speak words of love and grace, but I will protect and cut with the thorns and blades if need be.
As I practice writing
down all the things unsaid, I free myself from any power it held over me. I reclaim my voice, my right to exist and take up space.
Period.
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