01/01/2026
New Years Eve Medical Mom Thoughts: Can a year forever conclude with both labels of the "worst year" and the "best year" of our lives? How could such a terrible thing happen . . . yet so many unbelievably amazing things happened all jumbled together in the span of 365 days? To think about them coexisting is a strange feeling; 2025 will truly wrap up as the worst and the best.
Then somehow, mixed in with all the bad and all the good, there are these moments of intense pride that stick out like a sore thumb. Pride towards myself for surviving this year; for keeping it together after Kayden's stroke and never losing faith that my son would find his way back to us despite the seriousness of it; keeping up the hope that this stroke will one day be a thing of the past . . that this is just a chapter, not the whole story. Proud of myself for placing my entire world into the hands of the surgeons, knowing they would take care of my baby. Proud of myself for fighting through the fear of moving out of the CICU, then moving out of the hospital altogether.
And then there are a few too many moments to count of how proud I have been of my son over this last year. For waking up every morning and doing the damn thing despite being on life-support, despite bouts of fighting off sepsis, central line infections, fluid balance issues. For surviving his stroke, for surviving heart failure, for surviving transplant surgery, all before his 3rd birthday. And then all the moments during his therapy sessions - watching him learn to roll again, to sit again, to stand again, to take off in his walker walking with BOTH feet, seeing the freedom on his face when he independently does something without help. Watching him learn to make sounds again, to drink from a cup again, to eat his favorite foods again. I can not find a word to accurately describe how proud I am of my child. He has become MY strength & MY motivation. On days I'm too tired to do anything . . there he is bouncing, smiling, talking away reaching for me. 'Mum' he calls me. ❤
So despite the 'bad' that this year brought, I'll continue to push myself to focus on the good that came from it:
- The friendships I built with staff that truly became family -- for almost 2 years they've held me up on days I couldn't stand and they've loved Kayden like their own.
- The resilience I saw within my baby boy, not realizing it was possible to actually look UP to someone only 3 feet tall!
- The test of my marriage . . over 22 months of living apart after 16 years of living together; but here we are, celebrating New Years together once again, but with a healthy baby boy this time around! 😉
Happy New Year's to everyone in Kayden's Support Squad. Thank you for continuing to be so invested in Kayden's Journey and cheering him on along the way! I assure you, I'm just as excited to see what adventures this little one has in store for us in 2026!
📸 (Pictured is Kayden's first time ever testing out his new walker that we got at the end of November, taking his first few steps without anyone holding him from behind . . . I think his smile says it all!) 🥂