Kathleen’s medical madness journey

11/21/2025

It’s so hard. Life is so hard when you fight so long to get some tiny bit of health and then the fu***ng government gets involved. I don’t know how much more push i have in me.

11/21/2025

And another pharmacy no longer carries my pain meds. The hospital pharmacy and CVS. I don’t live in a big city guys…. I’m getting real nervous about what my life will look like with no pain meds. Cause I’m sure it’s coming

11/20/2025

Thank the lord there are still some ED doctors who LOOK at a patients CHART and says “you know why? She may actually be in pain, I’m going to help her out! Her pain must suck.” And then gives patient pain meds.

11/20/2025

Hi ho hi ho it’s off tot he ER I go. Severe back and pelvic pain, feeling of a too tight rubber band around my ribs, short of breath, muscles cramping. Super fun

11/19/2025

Not a great couple days. In bed all day yesterday because of pain.

Today I managed to make it to the couch at least.

When flaring chronic pain shows up at the same time as your endometriosis flare, gastroparesis flare, my period AND perimenopause combine. Life is s**t

11/10/2025

Don’t often post reels but this fits sooooo hard right now lol

Made an appt for Friday to ask about hormone replacement patches cause it’s a s**t show in my head.

10/23/2025

A bit of an emotional vent today from yours truly.

TLDR (by the way this means ‘To Long Didn’t Read): I hate that I have had to have a period every month for decades knowing I wouldn’t be using any of it; my eggs, ovaries, uterus etc none of it. It will all just cause problems and pain. And it’s not because they don’t work, but because it it would devistate me if I knowing the risks, still had a kid and gave them all my s**t.

I don’t know man, the more I learn about perimenopause; the more I go “That’s happening to me because of menopause!?” the more I wanna throw hands. What I’m trying to say is: the more I learn, the more upset I get. That’s not strong enough… the more fu***ng livid I am.

I first got my period in 7th grade, I was 12. My mom had had ‘that talk’ and prepped me already, so I knew it was coming. My body was physically ready to start my family. I was excited in a weird way. I had always known I was born to be a mom and I was one (very important step!) closer to that dream.

I’m 42 now. That’s 30 years of periods (so far). On my 20th bday I had a routine appointment that Clayton took me to. It unexpectedly turned towards having kids since Clayton was there and we were pretty serious by then. Clayton had reached over to hold my hand; looking back, I think he knew what the doc was about to say. The doctor then proceeded to unceremoniously tell us flatly that under no circumstance should I reproduce. That was 8 years after my period started. I got 8 years where my period meant the same as every one else’s: your body is physically ready to start your family. I was a teenager for every one of those periods. Not prime kid planning year lol

Insert 28 years of every month having a literal painful reminder, extra spicy because of the endometriosis, that I will never be pregnant and I will never use all my mom parts for mom things like doing the deed and wondering if we just made a baby, no anticipation of waiting after peeing on a stick, no jumping up and down crying in the bathroom over a positive result, no planning and recording telling Clayton (if I took the test without him), no feeling my baby grow and move inside me, no listening to the heartbeat, no ultrasounds of baby, no finding out the gender during an ultrasound(although Sara took me to hers so I could experience finding out the s*x with her!I love you bitch) no rubbing my belly protectively, no middle of the night chats with my belly, no gory/painful/funny/whlsome labor stories, no breast feeding (this killed me more than I was prepared for).

And NOW! After 28 years of that… I get 10-15 years of so much worse! Still have the monthly(ish) reminder of all of the above, but now it’s like… with jazz hands. I cry constantly, I pick fights on purpose all while thinking “why are you doing this!? Stop it woman!” All while adding to the never ending surprise list of awful and weird symptoms of perimenopause that no one told me. No one prepares you for this stage. It’s fu***ng hard man.

I dunno… I’m just rambling I feel like so imma just go ✌🏿

10/22/2025

Enjoy this Snapchat filter scaring the s**t out of me

10/19/2025

We are inching closer to understanding the immune system enough to keep it from attacking the body!! (A large portion of my illnesses are because of this).

The Nobel Prize in Physiology or Medicine 2025 was awarded jointly to Mary E. Brunkow, Frederick J. Ramsdell and Shimon Sakaguchi "for their discoveries concerning peripheral immune tolerance"

10/18/2025

I love having a card! I also have one for bringing in outside food to a stadium or whatever. Some have sent me messages saying they didn’t know this existed or what is it. Basically it’s illegal to make someone s**t their pants because of a health reason lol so if you have to go and go “now” and the restroom where you are is “employees only” you show the card and they have to let you use it

https://www.crohnsandcolitis.com/sign-up