29/11/2025
If you have a distorted relationship to healing itself,
you will never actually sit with the real wound.
You’ll only sit with the feelings created by self-judgment.
Think about it:
If you feel shame about still needing to heal…
you won’t sit with the actual pattern,
you’ll just sit with the shame.
If you believe “I should be further ahead by now,”
you won’t sit with the memory or the pain,
you’ll sit with the pressure of trying to be “further ahead.”
If you guilt-trip yourself with
“I’m not doing enough,”
you’re not doing shadow work,
you’re doing self-attack.
Which means:
You never get to the root.
You never get to the truth.
You never get to look back at your life and ask,
“What actually happened?”
“What did I need?”
“What do I want to do differently next time?”
Because your system is too busy fighting you.
This is why right-relation matters.
If your relationship to healing is full of shame, urgency, guilt, avoidance, or “I should be further ahead”…
your attention will always get hijacked.
Not by the trauma
but by the noise around it.
You can’t study your pattern if the entire time you’re drowning in judgment about the fact the pattern exists.
You can’t hold discomfort if the discomfort immediately gets turned into
“I’m failing,”
“I’m behind,”
or “I shouldn’t feel this.”
You can’t build self-trust if you never get to explore the actual material
you only recycle the feelings born from self-criticism.
Right-relation is what creates capacity.
Capacity is what lets you sit long enough for the nervous system to discharge.
Capacity is what lets you cry without shame.
Capacity is what lets you examine a moment and ask,
“What could I have done differently so I never abandon myself like that again?”
This is how self-trust is built:
Not through perfection, through self-knowledge.
Healing doesn’t fail because you’re broken.
Healing fails because your relationship to the process is blocked.
Fix the relationship.
Rebuild the capacity.
Then the real healing finally becomes available.