Consciously Wholistic

10/31/2022

10/17/2022

A few days ago, I shared a post on my personal page, that said "Never underestimate the power of a person who is healing their trauma. This person has been through the darkest places the world has to offer, and is still standing before you, committed to seeing the light."

It's me.
I'm that person.
And people often underestimate me.
But, why?
That's the question I've been pondering recently.
And I discovered the answer is really quite simple...

I haven't been showing up as my most authentic self,
or sharing my fullest truth,
so there are very few people who really, truly know who I am.

I've decided, it's time for me to change that!

But let me throw in a tiny caveat...
In all sincerity, I don't care about anyone else's opinion of me.
It is useless information, and honestly none of my business.
I won't be everyone's cup of tea, and I'm fine with that.
But I will always do my best to honor you, "doin' you",
and that is what I desire to receive.
And I'm definitely going to be doing me!

Now, who exactly is that?

I'm a witch...
A Woman In Total Control of Herself!

I'm a bitch...
Beautiful, Intelligent, Talented, Compassionate, and Honest!

I'm an ...
She, who leads herself! (And, I'm magic on legs! Just ask Melanie Ann Layer, she's the one who taught me that gem of wisdom! ❤ )

But most importantly, I'm a carbon copy clone of the Light of the world,... guided in every way, and in all my days, by Spirit!

And I'm here for a purpose; one that I'm determined to spend the rest of my days becoming!

Why?

Because I know the anguish of being lost in the darkest of deep darkness, and I hate the idea of anyone else being there!

It wasn't that long ago, that I crept out of mine.

About two & a half years ago, to be precise.

I was deeply depressed, and nearly at the end of myself.
I was so sad, and so lonely, and I didn't feel like anyone even cared.
I honestly couldn't see a reason to keep living.

One very, very dark night, in March of 2020, I walked out into my pasture, fell to my knees, and screamed at the top of my lungs!

I cried out, in my pain, and in my anguish, and in my despair, and released my broken heart to the moon and stars.

"Is this REALLY my life?"
"Why am I even here?"
"Is this REALLY how my story goes?"

And there it was...
A firm hand on my back.
I felt it!

And then a sweet, soft voice said,...
"No, it is not."

I swallowed hard, and I screamed again...
"Then why am I sitting here, and wanting to die?!?"

"Because you've forgotten who you came here to be."

I was stunned by that answer!

I became completely overcome with emotion, and I was sobbing uncontrollably.

When I recovered myself, I asked, "How do I remember?"

"Be what you wished you could've found, when you were lost in the dark."

"But I'm still in the dark.", I replied.

"No, you aren't; or you wouldn't be asking those questions."

I staid out in the field for quite a while after that, pondering what I'd heard, and I actually eventually fell asleep there.

I don't know how long I slept, but I awoke with a deep knowing that I was definitely NOT done yet!

One of my favorite French, Post-Impressionist artists, Paul Gauguin, once said... "In order to produce something new, you have to return to the original source,...“ — so that's what I did.

I dove headfirst, into the darkest recesses of my past.

I was determined to find the missing pieces of me; those things I'd left behind when my traumas took place.

I had to find them, so I would know what I'd needed most at those times.

I have worked so diligently, since that night, pursuing those answers.

I also sought out those who could help me continue to do so.

I looked for anyone who was leading, guiding, coaching, or mentoring others in that direction...
the direction I was being called to go,...
and aligned myself with them.

And I slowly moved along, on a journey to conscious wholeness, in my mind, in my body, and in my soul.

And in the process, I found true healing for the traumas I'd experienced in my childhood, in my early and middle adulthood, and even for the things I was wrestling with in the now.

And as each healing came, and I did the work to reintegrate the pieces back into my being, I started to see myself differently.

Bit by bit, I was remembering me.

I am...
IN the Light,
OF the Light,
FOR the Light!

And I remembered why I came here!

I also remembered the many gifts, talents, and skills I came here with; Gifts I was meant to share with the world!

And now, I am devoted to sharing my Light, along with the stories of the journey that I've been on, and in any way Spirit needs me.

That's how Consciously Wholistic was born...

Out of my desire to help others come to conscious wholeness, and remembrance of themselves, in their mind, body, and soul.

So, if you're wandering in darkness, and you're ready to make your way out, I would love, and be honored to shine Light on your path. Send me a DM, or drop a comment below, and let's chat. You don't have to walk the path to your conscious wholeness all alone!
Photo Credit: me! 😉

08/02/2022

We are ALL whole on the day of our arrival on Earth.
Everything we need to know, all the skills we need for a successful experience, are already in us.
We are perfect, in every way, for the task of living out the life we came here to live.
But we're conditioned, from the very beginning, to be something else.
Who does this conditioning?
All the other humans around us.
And while they mean well, and have their reasons for doing so, they inadvertently begin to shape us into whomever they determined us to be.
They start from the moment we're born, by giving us our first label... a name, and likely add quite a few other labels:
daughter/son
sister/brother
grandson/granddaughter
niece/nephew/cousin
firstborn/second born/third born/etc.
While they do so for the "ordering of society", it's just the start of the pigeonholing process.
As we get older, and venture further out into the world, we begin the grooming process the world calls our education.
It's really more like our indoctrination...
We're taught the common words, used around the world, but given to us in the language of the region where we live. Most of them are the labels given to those other humans,...
mom/dad/sibling
grandma/grandpa
aunt/uncle
and to the objects of existence.
We're taught the alphabet for that specific language, as well as cadence of speech and inflection, for obvious reasons...
we need to be able to communicate in that language.
But we're often only taught that one language.
We're then ushered into the main stream system of education, with lots of other small humans, where we get more labels, and yet more conditioning.
We're taught all the "rules" for basic social behavior there, both for what is worldly known and accepted, and for the specific region of the world we live in.
Do/Don't Do this or that.
Be/Don't Be this or that.
Say/Don't Say this or that.
But most importantly, we are taught, inadvertently, to forget all we knew about our self before we arrived.
And we are further conditioned by that educational system, to become performance based... high marks = good student, low marks = bad/poor student... and competitive with our fellow humans, instead of collaborative.
We're also labeled and qualified by that system, based on our family of origin and their financial and social standings too. If we come from a "less than ideal" home, we're deemed "at risk", and watched for further signs of being "abnormal".
Then we plug along, moving through the milestones of the program, sometimes whether we are ready to move forward or not, and then spewed out into the real world, where we are expected to become functioning, contributing members of society.
It's ALL conditioning!
And in truth... NONE OF IT EVEN TOUCHES WHO YOU ARE!!!

Sure, maybe we were given some elective choices in the middle and upper grades. But they were choices deemed "worthy of being taught"... not necessarily anything of real value to our adult lives.
And maybe we had parents/grandparents who taught us a second language, or encouraged us to be our truest selves. But for the majority of society, that was not the case.

And now, we have billions of people, walking this planet, with no real idea of who they are, or why they are here.
And lest you think I am just rambling, I know this all to be true because I experienced it first-hand... for myself, for my siblings, and for my children and grandchildren.

But then, something amazing happened...

I WOKE UP!
And I started to remember who I REALLY am!

Do you know who you REALLY are?

Who you are, is a beautiful spirit, having a human experience, inside a flesh suit.
You agreed to come here, to Earth School, to have that experience.
And you came with a purpose; a plan for what you were meant to accomplish during your experience.
And your higher self, the one that has been conscious of the plan from the start, feeds your subconscious with little blips, to remind you.
They sometimes show up as a deja-vu.
They sometimes come in the form of a dream.
They're sometimes just a feeling of simple "knowing".
All of these signs, and so many more, are your spirits way of reminding you about WHO you are, and WHY you are here.

YOU ARE HERE ON EARTH TO UNEARTH WHO ON EARTH YOU ARE!

Are you ready to fully remember?

I can help you with that. 🥰
Drop a comment below, saying "READY TO REMEMBER!", and I'll reach out with details on how you can begin the journey of returning to your truest self.

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