03/12/2026
“Have patience. Patience is the key to all relief.”
Life is full at the moment. I am here holding my sleeping baby, praying and wishing for more peace in the world.
Between the infinite cycle of laundry, dishes, working, cooking and nursing a velcro baby, I feel like I am treading water most days while also feeling immensely grateful for this season of motherhood. Straddling opposites and holding paradoxes constantly, I love every moment together and miss my alone time too.
Recently for the first time in almost 8 months, I made the time to step back into two of my hobbies, working with a green horse and getting back to tango lessons. My shoulders have started to curl in forward from the cocoon of motherhood. Getting back into my hobbies required lifting, expanding up against the edges of my physical and mental holding patterns. When we move in familiar circuits, the body holds it, becoming ever more efficient and ever more calcified. Getting out of our comfort zone, pushing, expanding beyond that restricted space, helps keep us limber and open.
In these days of nestling around our daughter, stepping back into horsemanship and tango pushed against my edges. By seeking to understand a new dance partner and a new horse, I can know and understand myself more deeply. Integrating these other parts back into my present incarnation of motherhood helps me root back into wholeness again.
Exploring the dynamics of tango and horsemanship both humbly mirrored back my old familiar patterns: rushing to take the step, trying to get to the end, prioritizing product over process, trying to be “good,” instead of celebrating a moment of connection, jumping to the next “task.” Stepping back into old parts of myself, with new teachers and this new body, I am rediscovering old landscapes of my soul through hobbies and making space for all the messy parts that as humans connect us and give depth to our experience. Playing, dancing, reflecting and cultivating peace with what is. Trying new things/ revisiting old things helps with patience when time feels elusive.
We are all here, doing the best we can, between loads of laundry, trying to care for the people we love.