03/08/2023
DAY +6
 It’s day +6 and the last few days have been getting used to routines and becoming acquainted with the staff. I found that each day has been a waiting game upon waking wondering, if it’s the day that I’ll begin to have all of the bad symptoms that are in evitable to have.  There’s also is a part of me that was thinking will I be one of the lucky ones and not have any symptoms that were too unkind.
Well, it turns out today I woke with the beginning of mucositis. My tongue is swollen, my throat is hard to swallow, and my mouth is very small and tight. As the day has progressed so has the mucositis. I’m also being fed (receiving nutrients) through IV. I have had this the last two nights because my appetite has decreased significantly and I wasn’t eating enough food. It runs for 12 hours from 6 pm to 6 am daily. This also has all the electrolytes and other vitamins and minerals that my body needs to stay strong.
My body has bloated quite significantly due to all of the fluids that are being pumped through the IV into my body. I am, however trying to still eat a little bit during the day to keep my digestive system working.
I had a bit of a panic attack last night. Talking about it with a counsellor today I recognise that it came from a place of feeling overwhelmed. You not only feel overwhelmed you feel that things are out of your control because everything is been done to you and it’s just not a normal way to spend four weeks cooped up in a hospital room. I was able to call my friend Sharyn, who has been through a stem cell transplant at Fiona Stanley Hospital just over a year ago now, and she reminded me ever so gently and kindly that my body needs all of the IV treatments in order to be able to successfully house my new stem cells, my new immune system. She also reminded me that it’s not forever!!!
There is an army of people behind my recovery, all the scientists, dietitians, nurses, doctors, specialists, family, friends … they are all working behind the screens so I can have an opportunity to live a healthy life.
I’m not sure how much longer I will be able to keep this journaling up, but I will do it for as long as I can. Then when I’m back up running again, I will fill in the important experiences.
Thank you so much for your support, your messages, your love, your friendship, it really does make such a difference knowing that I have people cheering me on!
Oh and if you’ve messaged me and I’ve not been able to get back yet, I definitely will x