04/29/2026
✨South Africa✨
If I’m being completely honest, 2025 was rough.
I struggled in my marriage. Constantly felt like a bad mom. My social media career stalled—no emails, no DMs, nothing. This income and life I built just stopped.
I lost myself. Suicidal thoughts came back with a vengeance. Through IFS, I knew I needed to tend to my firefighter part. She was begging me to see her, to listen—because she protects the younger me.
Then I realized: all the abandonment is activating me. I felt emotionally abandoned in so many relationships.
But here I am.
In AFRICA. AFRICA!!
Attempting. Living my life to the fullest. Not giving a damn.
I’m in awe that no matter what, I keep going.
I’m proud of me.
And maybe that’s the whole point.
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