06/05/2024
Struggle with feminine aspects of Self...
For many years I've struggled with my feminine side. I was a tom boy in grade school and high school, always drawn to martial arts and more aggressive Yang like sports. My mom prayed for me to grow out of that stage so she could dress me up, as I liked to rebel and wear pants instead of dresses and skirts she chose for me.
Not until later in life did I slowly start to embrace my Yin side, my feminine, softer side. Even in my adulthood I felt like I needed to hustle and grind and lead with that masculine side to get things done. Yang is the active masculine side of us, Yin is the receptive, softer side. Finding the balance was always tricky for me.
Now that I have entered my 40s I am so much more in tune with my Yin side, I am not running away and hiding behind my Yang side. In a way I thought if I look sweet and feminine and act like that people wouldn't take me seriously, or if I make a mistake they'll see me as a dumb girl. But as my smart mommy says - no I am more powerful by embracing that Yin side of myself, people are more drawn to me and I can share my message with the world more potently than cutting off a side of myself.
What about you, have you ever experienced this struggle yourself?
With love,
